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beryl
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dexter
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gurvin
heem mei
huiying
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jiayi
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marion
priska
shaomin
sharon
suhui
tracy
tzeyin
wan ting
weiling
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xianny
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Monday, March 26, 2007
it is time to let go,
words spoken so clearly in my mind
when i threw the letter.
the letter that contains my dad's name
that cause a hullabaloo in my home yesterday
i learnt a couple of thing yesterday.
fear says why God?
faith says why not?
=).love it!
i realise i keep blaming God about my bad situation here and there.
then, it just struck me yesterday that
what i have is too much not too little
to let Him works in my life.
moreover, faith aint faith unless it is tested.
then today talk to ms kong, she just reveals God greater plans for me
(or rather God himself reveals that to me.)
i'm always sad or angry,
thinking why cant i desire things of the world
for instance leadersip positions,being some1 who is zai etc
precisely i cant seem to get over this
thats y i am always unhappy.
as i was thinking why i keep failing,
then i realise i have been going onto the wrong directions
and that God wants me back to His real path and my destiny.
this relevations came went i read harvest times.
it actually helps when i am actually reflecting my life on friday
(hey reflecting doesnt mean emo..haha.)
anw, i just want to be an ordinary person
in this age of instability,
where fathers can walk out on you,
but you know Father in heaven wont,
and that i will stand for Him
and be an extraordinary person
far greater than i thought i can be for Him.
and for the rest of ppl whom i know are very stress due to so many commitments, just a word of advice:
whenever you do feel burnt out, it is not cuz u are
but rather you are discouraged by the things to do.
so dun ever be in a position where u get discouraged.=)!
words spoken so clearly in my mind
when i threw the letter.
the letter that contains my dad's name
that cause a hullabaloo in my home yesterday
i learnt a couple of thing yesterday.
fear says why God?
faith says why not?
=).love it!
i realise i keep blaming God about my bad situation here and there.
then, it just struck me yesterday that
what i have is too much not too little
to let Him works in my life.
moreover, faith aint faith unless it is tested.
then today talk to ms kong, she just reveals God greater plans for me
(or rather God himself reveals that to me.)
i'm always sad or angry,
thinking why cant i desire things of the world
for instance leadersip positions,being some1 who is zai etc
precisely i cant seem to get over this
thats y i am always unhappy.
as i was thinking why i keep failing,
then i realise i have been going onto the wrong directions
and that God wants me back to His real path and my destiny.
this relevations came went i read harvest times.
it actually helps when i am actually reflecting my life on friday
(hey reflecting doesnt mean emo..haha.)
anw, i just want to be an ordinary person
in this age of instability,
where fathers can walk out on you,
but you know Father in heaven wont,
and that i will stand for Him
and be an extraordinary person
far greater than i thought i can be for Him.
and for the rest of ppl whom i know are very stress due to so many commitments, just a word of advice:
whenever you do feel burnt out, it is not cuz u are
but rather you are discouraged by the things to do.
so dun ever be in a position where u get discouraged.=)!
Thursday, March 22, 2007
oh God, i am super tired
tired of the word SGC.
gosh..just now ms kong is mentioning
and every1 is mentioning
couldnt they just stop?
they make me regret giving up pre-sem even more.
n you think people do not really give a damn abt SGC.
actually eveyone does
and the reason
it is cuz the sch env that moulds our perception to be like that.
even you are the slackest person around
dont you feel a tinge of worry
as for the rest knowing that your SGC secure,
don't you always wish for something more.
if i really have a choice, but the thing is actually i dont
so no more crying over the spilled milk.
no more feeling sorry for myself plz.
maybe i should concentrate more on my study currently
instead of thinking too much.
haha.
anw, i'm so proud to overcome my emotional insecurities
thank God for Him! =)
cant wait to go church today.
n i rly hope my com is alright if not i'm rly dead.
tired of the word SGC.
gosh..just now ms kong is mentioning
and every1 is mentioning
couldnt they just stop?
they make me regret giving up pre-sem even more.
n you think people do not really give a damn abt SGC.
actually eveyone does
and the reason
it is cuz the sch env that moulds our perception to be like that.
even you are the slackest person around
dont you feel a tinge of worry
as for the rest knowing that your SGC secure,
don't you always wish for something more.
if i really have a choice, but the thing is actually i dont
so no more crying over the spilled milk.
no more feeling sorry for myself plz.
maybe i should concentrate more on my study currently
instead of thinking too much.
haha.
anw, i'm so proud to overcome my emotional insecurities
thank God for Him! =)
cant wait to go church today.
n i rly hope my com is alright if not i'm rly dead.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Come into my heart, Lord
Let Your presence falls
Let it rains down on me
As Your peace falls upon me
Your Spirit lift me up
I feel Your strength rising in me
Your love takes hold of my heart...
This is my heart's cry
to worship You alone
and to hear Your voice
With all that I have
With all that I am
I will praise Your name.
and the song goes on..
just simply love this song
i dont know why
but i look at you,
i see myself in you and you in me
i dont fully understand your situation
but something just struck me,
you are so like who i used to be
and God just wants to tell you that
you need Him in your life.
you may disagree,
you may fight
but in the end He still loves you
this is what i am certain of.
you don understand
why you have to go thru that much of pain
why you have to suffer when others dun hv to
if there's such a great God exist in this world.
He wants to tell you
in your weakness, He shall glorify His strength in them
thru ur weakness, then you will run to Him
from ur weakness, you learn to hv faith in Him.
He did a miracle in me
He is the same God
who is gg to perform the same miracle onto you. =)
i hope you can find that purpose for your living
your solution to all your pain.
Just as i have found mine.
Noone gg to remember your status,your popularity,your money forever but it is your capacity to love that will bring you to eternity.
TRACY darling,dun ever give up yea? i am with you in this race of faith. you promise to run this tgt yea?loves loves!
Your mom can stop you from gg church but she cant stop you from doing great things for the Lord! =)
Let Your presence falls
Let it rains down on me
As Your peace falls upon me
Your Spirit lift me up
I feel Your strength rising in me
Your love takes hold of my heart...
This is my heart's cry
to worship You alone
and to hear Your voice
With all that I have
With all that I am
I will praise Your name.
and the song goes on..
just simply love this song
i dont know why
but i look at you,
i see myself in you and you in me
i dont fully understand your situation
but something just struck me,
you are so like who i used to be
and God just wants to tell you that
you need Him in your life.
you may disagree,
you may fight
but in the end He still loves you
this is what i am certain of.
you don understand
why you have to go thru that much of pain
why you have to suffer when others dun hv to
if there's such a great God exist in this world.
He wants to tell you
in your weakness, He shall glorify His strength in them
thru ur weakness, then you will run to Him
from ur weakness, you learn to hv faith in Him.
He did a miracle in me
He is the same God
who is gg to perform the same miracle onto you. =)
i hope you can find that purpose for your living
your solution to all your pain.
Just as i have found mine.
Noone gg to remember your status,your popularity,your money forever but it is your capacity to love that will bring you to eternity.
TRACY darling,dun ever give up yea? i am with you in this race of faith. you promise to run this tgt yea?loves loves!
Your mom can stop you from gg church but she cant stop you from doing great things for the Lord! =)
Thursday, March 08, 2007
if i had not give it up...
i wld realise everything falls nicely.
that i realise i can hv sth close as a frenzhship in aj whereby i am spendin my time more fruitful.
i rly regret not taking 4 h2 intially. or even h3 maths.
wad if i hv been in the same class as joycelyn, yiting etc?
will i enjoy myself better?
i do not know.
i just know that life in aj is full of regrets.
why?it is because of me myself and i.
i am always fearful of the future.
i always stick to my comfort zone.
n i pay such a huge price for it.
n i so swear i did.
maybe it is time to follow my heart n jump at every opportunity
and let God do the impossible in my life.
which i always think i cannot cope
but God says this is not ur limit
that is ur limit.
i want to cry.
for being such a loser
thru out my life.
but you know wad i realise as i am walking hme today
there no tears that can be squeezed out.
why?
my heart has grown so cool.
so hard.
so much that i fail to love once again.
is it too much to ask for a frenz?
ppl tell me i need to do so.
but rly, i dun need 1 anymore.
cuz i rly cant find one.
despite how much i wish to have 1.
with all the rubbish in my mind( but hey at least i do not have to keep up w this facade that i am always happy),
it time to detoxify
thank God i have God
if not my life will be worse off.
it's so painful,Lord
let me glorify you in my studies.
i dun want to let my strength become my weakness
I want to run this race with You
Let Your will be done not mine! =)
i wld realise everything falls nicely.
that i realise i can hv sth close as a frenzhship in aj whereby i am spendin my time more fruitful.
i rly regret not taking 4 h2 intially. or even h3 maths.
wad if i hv been in the same class as joycelyn, yiting etc?
will i enjoy myself better?
i do not know.
i just know that life in aj is full of regrets.
why?it is because of me myself and i.
i am always fearful of the future.
i always stick to my comfort zone.
n i pay such a huge price for it.
n i so swear i did.
maybe it is time to follow my heart n jump at every opportunity
and let God do the impossible in my life.
which i always think i cannot cope
but God says this is not ur limit
that is ur limit.
i want to cry.
for being such a loser
thru out my life.
but you know wad i realise as i am walking hme today
there no tears that can be squeezed out.
why?
my heart has grown so cool.
so hard.
so much that i fail to love once again.
is it too much to ask for a frenz?
ppl tell me i need to do so.
but rly, i dun need 1 anymore.
cuz i rly cant find one.
despite how much i wish to have 1.
with all the rubbish in my mind( but hey at least i do not have to keep up w this facade that i am always happy),
it time to detoxify
thank God i have God
if not my life will be worse off.
it's so painful,Lord
let me glorify you in my studies.
i dun want to let my strength become my weakness
I want to run this race with You
Let Your will be done not mine! =)
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
haha..i am stressed with dunoe wad.
i think it is something call studies which i am indeed very worried.
testimonial now is like ok but not gd enuff but who cares as long as you can go U.
i am worried.
can i trust God to provide again?
of cos, but all i need now is to have faith and continue that way!
ACCELERATE!
Losing the battle but keep on the flame to fight.
the only fear is fear itself.
fear can go as far as you let it to be.
i think it is something call studies which i am indeed very worried.
testimonial now is like ok but not gd enuff but who cares as long as you can go U.
i am worried.
can i trust God to provide again?
of cos, but all i need now is to have faith and continue that way!
ACCELERATE!
Losing the battle but keep on the flame to fight.
the only fear is fear itself.
fear can go as far as you let it to be.
Friday, March 02, 2007
haha...i am dying from commitments.
unexpectedly, i got into de and pre-u seminar.i am thinking of backing out from pre-u cuz it serves God no purpose except for my testimonial.n a tiny voice inside tells me to give up.this decision has weigh heavily on my mind for the past 24hrs.n how my head hurts. i wish to ask for correct advice but rly i dun see the point too cuz in the end it is my decision not others.
i guess the logic is to pray to God to increase my capacity, to lay aside all my wgts of procastination,not following time-table,being lazy n wallow myself up in self-pity etc.i feel that i am not doing my best.i can feel that God indeed increase me but i am not helping myself to accelerate.i am so afraid all the commitments that i am gg to take will affect my involvement in church.yes it is true that there are people who are able to handle so many commitments n score well but i am not like them n i shud not try to be like them cuz i only get myself killed.n if i take up this pre-u sem commitment,i am afraid my commitment to church will decrease and i cldnt face God when i go up to heaven 1 day.
the worse is when u hv the choice n the choice clashes ur heart n ur mind.
but something just make me think if it is meant to be why God allow me to pass thru that audition,is it a test of faith of whether i will put Him 1st or God really wants to show me sth thru that experience?
when i think of God, a sense of peace just overwhelms but i just cldnt stop worrying.
n gosh cca is rly sucking me out.phtog rly sucks.but i nv regret cuz i enjoyed their company.
my studies, my a's how?
i am thinking these 2 commitments can end up being worse than if i had stayed in hockey cuz hockey ends at beginning of may but these 2 commitments ends in june.
Nothing can take me away from Him, really nothing??
unexpectedly, i got into de and pre-u seminar.i am thinking of backing out from pre-u cuz it serves God no purpose except for my testimonial.n a tiny voice inside tells me to give up.this decision has weigh heavily on my mind for the past 24hrs.n how my head hurts. i wish to ask for correct advice but rly i dun see the point too cuz in the end it is my decision not others.
i guess the logic is to pray to God to increase my capacity, to lay aside all my wgts of procastination,not following time-table,being lazy n wallow myself up in self-pity etc.i feel that i am not doing my best.i can feel that God indeed increase me but i am not helping myself to accelerate.i am so afraid all the commitments that i am gg to take will affect my involvement in church.yes it is true that there are people who are able to handle so many commitments n score well but i am not like them n i shud not try to be like them cuz i only get myself killed.n if i take up this pre-u sem commitment,i am afraid my commitment to church will decrease and i cldnt face God when i go up to heaven 1 day.
the worse is when u hv the choice n the choice clashes ur heart n ur mind.
but something just make me think if it is meant to be why God allow me to pass thru that audition,is it a test of faith of whether i will put Him 1st or God really wants to show me sth thru that experience?
when i think of God, a sense of peace just overwhelms but i just cldnt stop worrying.
n gosh cca is rly sucking me out.phtog rly sucks.but i nv regret cuz i enjoyed their company.
my studies, my a's how?
i am thinking these 2 commitments can end up being worse than if i had stayed in hockey cuz hockey ends at beginning of may but these 2 commitments ends in june.
Nothing can take me away from Him, really nothing??