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Thursday, March 08, 2007

if i had not give it up...
i wld realise everything falls nicely.
that i realise i can hv sth close as a frenzhship in aj whereby i am spendin my time more fruitful.
i rly regret not taking 4 h2 intially. or even h3 maths.
wad if i hv been in the same class as joycelyn, yiting etc?
will i enjoy myself better?
i do not know.
i just know that life in aj is full of regrets.
why?it is because of me myself and i.
i am always fearful of the future.
i always stick to my comfort zone.
n i pay such a huge price for it.
n i so swear i did.
maybe it is time to follow my heart n jump at every opportunity
and let God do the impossible in my life.
which i always think i cannot cope
but God says this is not ur limit
that is ur limit.

i want to cry.
for being such a loser
thru out my life.
but you know wad i realise as i am walking hme today
there no tears that can be squeezed out.
why?
my heart has grown so cool.
so hard.
so much that i fail to love once again.
is it too much to ask for a frenz?
ppl tell me i need to do so.
but rly, i dun need 1 anymore.
cuz i rly cant find one.
despite how much i wish to have 1.

with all the rubbish in my mind( but hey at least i do not have to keep up w this facade that i am always happy),
it time to detoxify
thank God i have God
if not my life will be worse off.
it's so painful,Lord
let me glorify you in my studies.
i dun want to let my strength become my weakness
I want to run this race with You
Let Your will be done not mine! =)