always.

Friday, July 27, 2007

"if you want to have something you have never had before,
you got to do something you have never done before"

WOW.
talk to cherie yesterday.
and i am so so so glad.
many a times
i lead by my own strength
many a times
i despise myself for being weak
many a time
i actually ask God not to give me blessings
cuz i felt i deserve none of it

so many times...

but i forgot to realise i am a child of God. =D!

Sunday, July 22, 2007

once you see the greatness of God,
excellent is not good enough.

=D!

Saturday, July 21, 2007

You Are an Okay Student

You know how to get by school, but your heart isn't always in it.
Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting!

Are You a Good Student?

haha.nice.it captivates me accurately.
but i have to study well
i have to do well
cuz i have to do well for the Lord
i cant do the things that normal teens do
i cant spend dunoe how much time ppl spend in playing com games
i cant spend time watching tv
and yet they have got time to finish their work
they can still do well in exams.
but u noe wad,
i never really care what others get for grades
it doesnt make me happier or sadder
cuz they wont last i noe.
then why do i study?
i do question like normal teens
maybe thats the only part that makes me normal compare to them
and so the reason i do it
is ironically
cuz i am not like normal teens
cuz i'm an "ON-FIRE for God" teen. =D!
and we goes bk to pt 4 of this paragraph.

gosh.i dunoe.i'm certainly at cross-roads again.
i'm seriously considering am i okies?
let my weakness glorify You oh Lord.
that is all i asked.
i am not doing well
and i am not ashamed to say
but just let me glorify You.
=D!

faith to overcome the world.

my vision.my dreams.where do they go?
it just struck me.
i am heading another breakthrough soon!

don't give up jerlyn chan kai lin!!!
:D!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

well..emotions..
you can be high on one end and low to the other end
this is what i'm feeling now
but i learn that they are always hinge on the never-changing rock
in my life-Jesus Christ
maybe that is why i'm always happy
be it tough times bad time or good times or times of expectations.
=D!

DISCIPLINE AND LOVE! =)

not gg to let the Devil so easly ensnare me aways
i look at the world
saw their discussion
saw even the best do fall
saw people can just easily lose their purpose of life
because certain part of their life has been over
be it relationship,studies etc.

and i know i found my source of strength
my source of motivation
my source of love
my purpose in life
and i know no matter how bad life is
i have all of them in the faithful God.
=D!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

i cried during service today!! :D!
i cried cuz i am touched by what God did or rather IS going to do!
I AM NOT STUPID!
I CAN DO EVERYTHING IN HIS STRENGTH!!
DEVIL YOU ARE A LIAR!
BREAK THOSE CHAINS
THAT PREVENT ME FROM SOARING!!!
but first i truly have to learn to have faith first!

and to have faith,
i learn from kat u can fast from things like tv and internet.
so i decided i am going to fast from internet.
why?
cuz it is one of my strongholds
one of the things that holding me back to soar.
so yesh
i am gg to fast from a MONTH here
except times that i need for my work
and i shall limit it to an hr per month
and yesh i am going to do it

and God is truly amazing!!!

mom went to see psychologist
and just as i expected
it din work out
HAHA.
cuz all she wants is love
and i know
God is moving!!
=D!!

I AM NOT GOING TO COMPROMISE BUT HAVE FAITH!!! :D!

Friday, July 13, 2007

1 Peter 2:23
...when He suffered, He did not threaten, but committed Himself to Him who judges righteously.

=D!

mom going to see psychologist
like finally?
haha
but what can i say?
psychologist wont help her
cuz i've seen people who went thru
and live with it
and become parasite to it.
i always though i need pills to heal me
but no
all i need is Jesus's love.
and i am completely heal of all the pains
and yea i maybe facing bad times
there are times i feel like breaking down
there are time i drifted
but the Lord, my God
always break me,mould me and make me . :D!

You amazing
never-changing
always with me
enthroned within my soul
overflowing
my heart offers
the deepest honour and worship

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

we walk past the school corridors
brush against each other's arms
but we never say hi again.

thats how sad life is aint it?
we know so many people in life
so many friends or rather acquaintances
so many that it is uncountable
yet we never really have an in-depth relationship
with others.
it is rather an irony the closest people to you
the people whom u think u can flow with
will never be the ones you hang out daily.
at least for my case.

and many friends i made over the past two years
their memories just flashed across me
OG I/21/06 pae/hockey babes/OG II/24/06 jae/PS/DELTA!
all i can is an amazing wow.
i think the friendships i truly forged
was during OG I PS and DELTA
and when i am filled with a tinge of
how do i describe?
i forgot the word
oh no..there goes my GP.
haha.
u noe the feeling of enjoying going back to the past.

but as i filled w that feeling
but i deal it differently from the normal teens
i thank God for the past
but i cant wait for my EXCITING future!! =D!
and i know my future is going to be MORE AMAZING!
and knowing i have a solid rock-hoGc in my life
and a even more solid Rock in my heart

having people like cherie,lynette and tracy
knowing that they will always be there
no matter what
i never feel so secure in my life
and i really want to take this opportunity
to thank them
to groom me into a woman of substance
so strong
someone whom i never been in the past
the cheerful jerlyn you see today is all thanks to them!!
;D!

how could i ever thank You for?

Friday, July 06, 2007

Superman
by Five For Fighting

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

It's not easy to be me

nice song! =)
quite apt to describe me.
suddenly, i felt so overwhelmed.
but i got to stay being me =)
cuz i am special

n each time
my mental brain gonna collapse
my God keep reminding me of my BIG dreams
and i looked back
i have really grown.

no one knows what i've gone thru
no one knows i cried every night

trying to be strong is nv easy.
but i have 2paths
collapse and cry
or run in faith of things to come
and i go for the second one.

Monday, July 02, 2007

=(.i cant take it anymore.
and the tears start flowing again.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

this is my 2nd attempt of blogging today.
(without trying to cry)

watch freedom fighters today!! =) =)
it is a very very very good show!!!
for those who loves coach carter.
this is a must!!
lessons learnt:
1)i think S'poreans REALLY take racial harmony for granted.
2)no one can stop you from dreaming BIG

well.the reason of lesson learnt 2
is cuz of the teacher who caused such a big change
people may label her naive
senior teachers snigger at her
but she gave up her entire life for the change of these kids

kids that most people gave up on.
it even costs her marriage life.
can you imagine a teacher taking up
more part-time jobs
to support her current job.
so that she can buy new books for the kids to read
to give them a new lease of life?

i salute her for her courage! =)

stop saying teens are idealistic
that we cant dream big
rather we are being put down by you adults
thats why we cant reach far.
even if we failed
which will definitely happen
as shown as erin.g(the teacher in the show)
her initial trials as a teacher
are an absolute flops
but she keep pressing on to the things
she believes in and is able to change

"seeing the kids make sense of their lives makes sense of my life"
erin.g

WOW.=)

i keep crying.but i don know how to express what i've got to say.