always.

Saturday, September 18, 2004

.depressed.

I think I know who is the person that ty was referring about someone who used to be girly n so on turns out to be that rebellious…that was what she roughly wrote but I cant help but agree. Think that the girl who ty refer to had ‘de-prove’(if ever there is such a word) a lot from her results. But I just assume that she’ll do well in the important years ba. but don know le. I think she should start searching her life back n not to be that distant from us anymore. Feel very sad for that girl. Think it’s the way of spending $$ n earning it that changes her. Yup. Hmm. When I heard emm say ‘no use going after sth I cant have’…I feel damn sad lor cause its like does it means that girls like us( the ugly ones) will never have a chance to meet the guy of our dreams ever. n all left for us r those as desperate as us? Its sad but true. The world is rather superficial n I cant blame it this way either. I personally feel that all those big movie stars or singers r encouraging this sort of image. I mean duh~. Suddenly wish that I have good complexion like someone. Hmm.very sad la. But heck cares la right. Oh today got to interact with my new patrol. It was not that bad as I thought it would be. But there is someone that makes me feel very irritated ALL THE TIME. It kind of put me down anyway. She was the only one who dampens my mood. Sigh. Anyway later got back to old patrol. Prefer kingfisher. Anyway that girl who irritated me, irritated emm also. Poor emm. Sigh. N oh realize that there r so many sandras throughout the level. Remind me of last time there were so many charlenes. Ahaha. Today guides n tuition was not as bad as I thought. Well @ least I survive. Ahaha. eng exam is exactly a week n later time pass real fast n all the papers just kick in n it sucks. Cause I just have no motivation to study. So yar…mom got me stresses up by her work. Don know if she will be jobless again or not. Hope not. Our family need that $$ a lot. Anyway. Sigh. anyway just got a phone call from grandma from china. so damn cool..ahhaa.i nv got oversea calls b4 mah..ahahha..

Thursday, September 16, 2004

sch reopens..

waahhahah..still got ss(think gotta killed by mdm.faridah) n geo n amaths yet to be done..ahaha..but i just don know how to do ss le..wad kind of questions ish tt eh..nvm..hmm..sch reopen nth much..mon got tuition(phy)..ok la..teacher finish half an hr early but refuse to let us go..sigh..n i miss frenZ cuz of that.tue grandma went china..realize how cool it can be @ home to be all alone..took afternoon nap @ 3plus then woke up @ 7 plus..n the hse ish in total darkness..cool sia..ahaha..then cook my own instant noodles cuZ see the sky so dark don dare to walk out...ahaha..hv great time cookin it.guess hv enuff experience since camps.ahaha.hmmthe next day ish almost the same..actually din feel it that scary to be home all alone cuZ most of the time i took afternoon naps so by the time i woke up, mom's home..so yup...don feel anything..n oh today went out with ty n study then later cum home eat dinner..so tired that i slp on sofa 4 abt 1hr b4 wakin up..anyway with ty..heard that emm story.sigh..i pity her man..but i think that good-looking guys shuld start giving us(the-not-so-chio ones) some attention...i shuld say emm deserve that guy(given her personality) but don know if he'll be attracted to her or not..don think he will.. i mean guys r littat.think alicia gonna attract most no. of guys tmr.just got this feelin.anyway.got this feelin that i cant lead properly tmr..very scared.1st time meet my own patrol..don know if all secs 2 will turn up or not..but know that sam fong will cuZ anyway shes boy-craZy..but sigh hate it when she complain hope she can do more work instead this time rd..so yup..n oh durin mr chin n mr tan lesson quite funny esp with sihui n hazimah..quite fun la..start to pity mr tan anyway..poor guy...anyway..gotta end here.tmr gotta be a long day man..sigh n oh today got bk quite a no of tests quite disappointing man..so sad..think i'm gotta fare badly in EYE..din know that there ish a lot freaks in my class.always thot i was gd but i was wrong.kinda of down.sigh.but guess that things aint like 2/0 anymore..sigh

Monday, September 13, 2004

.the last day of hol.

Hello there…hmm..it the end of sch hol..cant believe.it’s a bit too fast but glad
that it ends anywae..find that this hol has been rather unproductive in the way that I not only din get outta of the hse but also din do much hw.just managed to complete my zuo wen…which I due so damn long n oh just realize that today was the 3rd yr anniversary for 911 attack.guess that time pass real fast man..i mean..its like wow!..3yrs pass since I took psle.n tmr gonna be term 4 which is also the final leap for being sec 3.cant say that I really enjoy my sec3 life compared to sec2.but sec2 got ndp u see..n got real close with some ppl.this yr hardly got close with any.but then I managed to prove many wrong abt sec3 life that means that ya gonna fail everything(well..i heard that from jianhai)..anywae..i din fail those major tests I suppose(did I?I cant remember actually).ok that’s not the point.think I’m doin betta than I was in sec2..budden this yr term 3 din really fare that well I guess..sigh..i mean this sucks..y m I so proud that I thot I can get gd results even though I din study(this is true for the 1st half of the yr).to think myself becoming a genius is a fool’s dream.hate it to think this way.anyway.exams coming up n I’m not prepared for it.but everytime the idea of studying is making me puke.even tracy is catchin up but I’m not attemptin too..wads the hell has become of me..but it just suddenly dawn to me how badly I fare in term 3.but I still can take it within my streak cuZ I gave the don-care attitude..arrgh..ok I haven finish all my work but I guess I’ve done most of it(without the heart in it) n I’m actually proud of it!?sigh..i don knoe why I feel this way..well actually I think I know.it just that I cant find the purpose of life is when 24hrs ya r actually studying.i mean its gd for the future but I din noe wad my future gonna be like.i cant find the prupose of life.all I knew n learnt so far is that in life there’s no right or wrong which I don’t get it when there is so many examinations telling us what is right n wrong.life to me is just like an examination script.it may be unknown but there is a fixed answer to it.its an irony for whatever that I learnt so far..but nvm..gtg to complete the last bit of hw n hope I’ve got the motivation to study..n oh I caught the guy’s eyes(n can he stop bittin whatever he have..it gross me out.saw him bitting his handphone and ruler today)n oh mrs selvya is down right biased!here I go..*poofs*..lamee..

Saturday, September 11, 2004

.i've done most of my work i guess.

ahaha..i promise not to touch my com today but i just cant help it mah...ahahah..glad i found a nice template....whee...so happie..ahahha..hmm..n oh almost done all my hw i guess..but still like a lot..tryin to fig out how do i change the your name part.ahahha..just don noe..thats the worst part of being html illiterate(i actually went to check dic for this word how useless can i get.hmm)so yup..tryin to change the your name part but still cant find.so irritatin..ahaha.i think the person that create this skin mention abt sth abt tagboard where the html illiterate cant find it..she write till so funny..ahaha..nvm..its just another boring day.regret that i din go n sign up for cedar open hse.guess it'll be real fun..but sigh..nvm..if i did go i wont be able to do my hw anyway..so kinda of bored now..feel like changing my template again.ahhahha..nah..i wont do that..i'm not that mad yet..think my chi really got pro man..sigh..but heck care.son think i'm gonna join miss oh eng tuition next yr but i badly need an eng tuition but how to find how i wish things can be the still like the past but haiZ...nvm..hmm..don know why..just feel very sian..don think couZ will be cumin n oh my auntie actually ask me to go her hse when my grandma away in china..this is like madness can!?i mean she stay in kembagan(think its spelt this wae) n i stap in tp a bit far n everytime i reach home 7 plus liao(thats like excludin tuition)so thats was like total complete madness to go her hse then reach home i mean i can take care of myself...plz...don take me as if i'm a kid...crap..nvm..mom went facial wash todae..din bring me along..so sad..i mean look @ my bloody damn face..ahaha..don noe how cum i get woke up so easily..i'm so damn stress how cum everyone can be in study mood when i JUST CANT..EH..NVM...AHAHHA..here i go*poofx*lamee....

found a cool template!

hey there..hmm..glad that i found a more hype template...so yar...thats it..guessi'm done for the day.gotta study.n oh the reason that i change ish that don like the chi song being played n didnt know it was mine..but @ least this ish more hype..so yup.realli gottat study..so yar..*poofx*lamee...

after tuition~

well...tution was ok @ least i din waste my $$.got to argue with miss oh abt argumentative compo.-.-'''.ahaha.ok i'm very lame.but nvm that me right!?n oh she make me write a compo instead of just in point form cuZ of that..but nvm..get to learn n theres more experience mah..exam cumin nearer n i'm feelin the stress but just hv no motivation to studyn oh during eng tuition..jasmine was like gd gd speak chi n i spoke n she was like i don understand ur chi sound so weird..ok fine..then eekeng sae i sound like caucasian...i mean damn.is my chi that bad..i'll ask some ppl some other day..nth much..just lookin ard 4 new n betta template..so yup..mom knew that i spent lots of time but she din stop me.kinda of weird..okok..gonna end here.*poofx*lame...guess that i like to end this way...

Friday, September 10, 2004

i just don get it!!!~

I just don get it!!well..i’m doin my phy tutorial now n it sucks n its due like way b4 I had my national camp n I realize that today is the 1st month anniversary that I was in foxtrot.cool eh.cant believe that it happened so fast n like wow!hmm..is it a bit too late to tok abt camp now.heard of the foxtrot gathering in dec.don know if I ever want to go or not.i mean its its great to see the peeps once again but the price to pay is too ex.all I hope was just a simple meal together.so yar…wait till dec then see la.actually quite shock that maziah actually ask me if I want to go cuZ shes not that kind that will go bk to this kind of gathering.still thinking of that stupid tutorial.how did the hell I got 0.25N.arrgh.nvm..mayb teach me a lesson that I shuld not keep my hw too.glad that hol is over actually.i’m real damn bored @ home.no1 to go out with n its just goin to tuition almost everyday.oh went to check frenZster the other day n realize how outdated I was I mean I hv 17 peeps adding me n 1 testimonial n its so damn bloody long.sorry guys din know that.hotmail din keep me updated u see.thot that I was a nobody but it was great when I see so many ppl addin me.mayb I shuld go n check frenZster only a few times but I guess it just coincide that it was after camp.so yup.hmmm..obs ppl will be comin bk wonder wads the experience will be like.kinda of drag eng tuition now but sigh still hv to go..but wads the point when I’m like wastin my time there.anywae hv u ever feel that boredom ish killin you..i felt it so much that it sucks.n oh hv you ever feel that u wished to be loved by someone but it’ll nv happen.guess I’ll be in the nv-been-kissed grp when I’m old.sort of accept my fate.oh anyway need to hurry to dinner n bathe so that I can make it for tuition n so yup here I go~!*poofs*lame..

Thursday, September 09, 2004

just another ordinary day~!

Yippie..finally hv a blog that I like.but don know y.the more I look @ it the more familiar it is..i’m wondering who use the same as mine.but nvm.both of use hv great taste in choosing this template.so happie with mine till I saw hui hui.see liao..make me look like my blog very pathetic..anyway must credits this to shaomin who tell me to go blogskin.com or else wont get to choose..ahahha..love it man.n oh clara who helped a bit here n there n her blog ish real fab!anyway grandma goin china soon..very sad.no1 @ home with me for the whole next wk.told her to get disposable panties but she refuse.say its very troublesome.she say the lazy generation will only use this..ahhaa.she thot I was mad when I start usin it.thot was throwin away my real 1.ahaha.anywae suppose to go out with xiany n ty to wq hse but woke up @ 2pm n xianny sae she didn’t want to go liao.so yup littat lor.dint go out in the end.got tuition yesterday tt class ish bloody annoying but wad can I do..just waitin to quit.mayb hairin was right after all.eng tuition just sucks.went to j8 after that with eekeng.told her how freaky the new gurl sittin bside me.i mean y does the new gurl keep looking my way!?sigh..i do wad she also hv to follow..i began to worried for my studies.didn’t get to study tryin to but just cant.the com ish just too much of a temptation..okok.think I betta stop n go study.btw…must give credits to those contestants of Singapore idol though some just cant sing as well as our American counterpart.but they’ve really shown true courage!

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Lalalal..wad a day..just cant find any motivation to study..just did a bit of hw here n there.don know how I’m gonna pass my EYE…was rather shocked yesterdae to hear that mrs selva(hope I spelt her name correctly) ish frm cedar too..(shes my phy tuition btw)…anywae..my day started with my grandma trying to woke me up thinking its normal sch daes..ahahha…cant believe my mom also think so (yesterdae nite)..cant believe she actually allow me to use the com for the whole on sat n I promise to work harder later but I didn’t donn noe y I feel so lazy eh..went to check out the price of the anklet that shireen bought for me as manito gift…aiyoh…its $9.90 lor make me feel so bad with tt bloody socks tt I given her.plus the waist pouch.cost her abt $15 le…recently just found out a guy frenZ of mine is a gay.find it very saddening to hear..don noe how to argue with him…its just isn’t right. but I can bothered oreadi aft that quarrel with some1 else over the same thing..hmm..went to tuition n tt guy whom I like did not cum..think oreadi get used to the fact that he didn’t cum anyway..n oh realize some guys frm this sch is very disgustin(oh it’s a boys sch anywae)don know how to explain…its just their looks n behaviour gross me out…but guess its typical behaviour of them…watch frenZ for the 1st time but sadly gonna be the last time.find it rather hilarious.@ least found sth to cheer myself up..wantin to rent a movie badly but I din cuZ don noe wad to choose..oh ahaha during phy lessons..mrs selva was teachin how to do some questions then after that she say just copy from the notes…ahahha…cant imagine if I did that for exams n tell the examinor that’s wad my tuition teacher teach one.:p.been tryin to do the webby but guessed it failed…ahhaa.nvm la…just stick to my old one then..