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Friday, September 29, 2006
angry...=(!sigh i cant believe this. nvm in my whole life i miss tuition not just cuz i overslept. i hate this feeling.sigh.super angry w myself.must be the medication fault.unproductive these few days.haha.RAh!!
but tell me who is ever prepare to go into exams? it seems like no one.
but i am cuz i know He has a plan for me. as long as i trust Him.=)!
falling in love with You more and more everyday...
but tell me who is ever prepare to go into exams? it seems like no one.
but i am cuz i know He has a plan for me. as long as i trust Him.=)!
falling in love with You more and more everyday...
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Do not compare, criticize nor compete!
Stop competing, start excelling!=)!
Just concentrate finishing your own race; do not cross over and look at someone else's lane.
While all of us are busy mugging, and people advise i should stop blogging, i do not feel it is a chore and a waste of time cuz during periods of stress, we learnt the most. thus, i am journalisin it so that people can learn too.
i guess today theme is explicit. it dawned me to write as i know many of us are facing the heat from competition especially in exams, in who scored the best etc and who gets to show off?
BUt, is it worth it?
No, i do not think so. Why? because no one will remember how much u score in this exams but they will remember the love and concern u provide during this period of stress.
so, my advice to people, go out there and love people!=)!
yes true, we still have to mug, to do our best. but rem we mug to do our best and not to be judged.
Stop competing, start excelling!=)!
Just concentrate finishing your own race; do not cross over and look at someone else's lane.
While all of us are busy mugging, and people advise i should stop blogging, i do not feel it is a chore and a waste of time cuz during periods of stress, we learnt the most. thus, i am journalisin it so that people can learn too.
i guess today theme is explicit. it dawned me to write as i know many of us are facing the heat from competition especially in exams, in who scored the best etc and who gets to show off?
BUt, is it worth it?
No, i do not think so. Why? because no one will remember how much u score in this exams but they will remember the love and concern u provide during this period of stress.
so, my advice to people, go out there and love people!=)!
yes true, we still have to mug, to do our best. but rem we mug to do our best and not to be judged.
Friday, September 22, 2006
Luke 6:37
"Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned, forgive, and ye shall be forgiven."
If the Lord can forgive us all, why can't we forgive other people for the hurtful things they had done to us? So people, break away from stereotypes, especially when people think Christians are perfect when we are not. Moreover, once you start to condemn that person, your attitude sucks too. What gives you the right to treat people that way?True, we learnt not to be selfish, not to gossip etc but we did not learn to be perfect cuz we simply are not.
Most impt lesson learnt this week: The true measure of a friendship is not the person's character but the amount the person contributes to this friendship.
"Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned, forgive, and ye shall be forgiven."
If the Lord can forgive us all, why can't we forgive other people for the hurtful things they had done to us? So people, break away from stereotypes, especially when people think Christians are perfect when we are not. Moreover, once you start to condemn that person, your attitude sucks too. What gives you the right to treat people that way?True, we learnt not to be selfish, not to gossip etc but we did not learn to be perfect cuz we simply are not.
Most impt lesson learnt this week: The true measure of a friendship is not the person's character but the amount the person contributes to this friendship.
Luke 6:37
"Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned, forgive, and ye shall be forgiven."
If the Lord can forgive us all, why can't we forgive other people for the hurtful things they had done to us? So people, break away from stereotypes, especially when people think Christians are perfect when we are not. Moreover, once you start to condemn that person, your attitude sucks too. What gives you the right to treat people that way?True, we learnt not to be selfish, not to gossip etc but we did not learn to be perfect cuz we simply are not.
Most impt lesson learnt this week: The true measure of a friendship is not the person's character but the amount the person contributes to this friendship.
"Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned, forgive, and ye shall be forgiven."
If the Lord can forgive us all, why can't we forgive other people for the hurtful things they had done to us? So people, break away from stereotypes, especially when people think Christians are perfect when we are not. Moreover, once you start to condemn that person, your attitude sucks too. What gives you the right to treat people that way?True, we learnt not to be selfish, not to gossip etc but we did not learn to be perfect cuz we simply are not.
Most impt lesson learnt this week: The true measure of a friendship is not the person's character but the amount the person contributes to this friendship.
Luke 6:37
"Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned, forgive, and ye shall be forgiven."
If the Lord can forgive us all, why can't we forgive other people for the hurtful things they had done to us? So people, break away from stereotypes, especially when people think Christians are perfect when we are not. Moreover, once you start to condemn that person, your attitude sucks too. What gives you the right to treat people that way?True, we learnt not to be selfish, not to gossip etc but we did not learn to be perfect cuz we simply are not.
Most impt lesson learnt this week: The true measure of a friendship is not the person's character but the amount the person contributes to this friendship.
"Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned, forgive, and ye shall be forgiven."
If the Lord can forgive us all, why can't we forgive other people for the hurtful things they had done to us? So people, break away from stereotypes, especially when people think Christians are perfect when we are not. Moreover, once you start to condemn that person, your attitude sucks too. What gives you the right to treat people that way?True, we learnt not to be selfish, not to gossip etc but we did not learn to be perfect cuz we simply are not.
Most impt lesson learnt this week: The true measure of a friendship is not the person's character but the amount the person contributes to this friendship.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Lord, let me be used for Your purpose!
and not let it be make used by others.
Amen
i'm so hurt by this person today. being oversensitive as usual. then i realise sth. i love God even more. due to that incident, i do not wish to be make use by others. it is hard to forget and forgive that idiot.but it is ok cuz i learnt.=)!
(to think i like him so much once)
no longer anymore...breaking free!=)!
and not let it be make used by others.
Amen
i'm so hurt by this person today. being oversensitive as usual. then i realise sth. i love God even more. due to that incident, i do not wish to be make use by others. it is hard to forget and forgive that idiot.but it is ok cuz i learnt.=)!
(to think i like him so much once)
no longer anymore...breaking free!=)!
Lord, let me be used for Your purpose!
and not let it be make used by others.
Amen
i'm so hurt by this person today. being oversensitive as usual. then i realise sth. i love God even more. due to that incident, i do not wish to be make use by others. it is hard to forget and forgive that idiot.but it is ok cuz i learnt.=)!
(to think i like him so much once)
no longer anymore...breaking free!=)!
and not let it be make used by others.
Amen
i'm so hurt by this person today. being oversensitive as usual. then i realise sth. i love God even more. due to that incident, i do not wish to be make use by others. it is hard to forget and forgive that idiot.but it is ok cuz i learnt.=)!
(to think i like him so much once)
no longer anymore...breaking free!=)!
Monday, September 18, 2006
I had another nightmare yesterday night. It reveals all my insecurities. Strangely, I dreamt of my church logo. The heart and a Cross. Someone drew it. One of my classmates who is a non-Christian. She drew it in red marker. She drew till very ugly. That wasn’t the highlight of my dream. In fact my dream was a superficial and scary one. I never really thought much about the drawing during my dream. I knew in my dream I was very badly hurt. However, when I woke up, I felt comforted the fact that the drawing existed in my nightmare. It just brings lots of joy at that point of time.
I guess it says a lot? God is always here. No matter what. It is just whether we choose to turn to him when we are in pain or turn away. Many times, I turn away. just like in my dream. But when I got out of my nightmare, reflecting back I realize that He was there with me. It is just me who can’t feel His presence.
After watching passion of Christ last Tuesday, I’ve learnt to commit myself even more to Him. What touches me a lot was he undergone so much physical pain and malicious statements were hurled against Him. At the same time, scenes of Him preaching the message of love were flashed. That was the watershed of my life.
Can you imagine you torture and hurt someone? And yet that person still loves you and pray for you? we all know that it is not easily to forgive and forget and most importantly love the ones you hate. But yet, He did it so willingly. It makes me so ashamed. The real love is not loving someone whom you already love, but loving someone whom you hate. That is called real love.
The true meaning of love.
I guess it says a lot? God is always here. No matter what. It is just whether we choose to turn to him when we are in pain or turn away. Many times, I turn away. just like in my dream. But when I got out of my nightmare, reflecting back I realize that He was there with me. It is just me who can’t feel His presence.
After watching passion of Christ last Tuesday, I’ve learnt to commit myself even more to Him. What touches me a lot was he undergone so much physical pain and malicious statements were hurled against Him. At the same time, scenes of Him preaching the message of love were flashed. That was the watershed of my life.
Can you imagine you torture and hurt someone? And yet that person still loves you and pray for you? we all know that it is not easily to forgive and forget and most importantly love the ones you hate. But yet, He did it so willingly. It makes me so ashamed. The real love is not loving someone whom you already love, but loving someone whom you hate. That is called real love.
The true meaning of love.
I read someone’s blog that makes everything that is bleak seems so amazing.
It just make me realize God has promised never to allow to put more on us than he puts within us to handle it.
When it seems like no one cares about you,
Except your riches and status.
When it seems like you are all alone in the crowd of people,
No one to turn to,
Feeling so hapless and lost.
When you feel like running away,
Running away from the world.
When you just have nothing left at all
but to sigh and cry
When everything seems so bleak,
You ever wonder there is a tinge of light
When you are tired of conforming to people
And you wonder when can you break free.
There is someone out there,
Who cares and loves you
Unconditionally,
No matter how much you sinned,
No matter how many scars you have
He is the One whom you can turn to,
Someone who can heal all pain.
All you have to do is believe in Him.
And in His plan.
Life is a test. Never give up. Never give in. BUT, GROW UP! =)!
It just make me realize God has promised never to allow to put more on us than he puts within us to handle it.
When it seems like no one cares about you,
Except your riches and status.
When it seems like you are all alone in the crowd of people,
No one to turn to,
Feeling so hapless and lost.
When you feel like running away,
Running away from the world.
When you just have nothing left at all
but to sigh and cry
When everything seems so bleak,
You ever wonder there is a tinge of light
When you are tired of conforming to people
And you wonder when can you break free.
There is someone out there,
Who cares and loves you
Unconditionally,
No matter how much you sinned,
No matter how many scars you have
He is the One whom you can turn to,
Someone who can heal all pain.
All you have to do is believe in Him.
And in His plan.
Life is a test. Never give up. Never give in. BUT, GROW UP! =)!
Sunday, September 10, 2006
You never seem to amaze me!
When I feel my faith is decreasing and whenever I tried to seek You but could not feel Your presence, You always have a plan for me returning to Your side.
Today sermon was really impactful; really close to my heart! It taught me how to be closer to You which I do not deny that I’m struggling!
Last week for the two consecutive nights, I had nightmares. One of them is me trying to run away from these two villains in my dream. The feeling is horrifying I tell you. The fear that consumes me. The running that never stop. I even dreamt of running to church to seek sanctuary but I ended up in my tuition class with robots learning computer. I do not know why it turn out that way but it did not freak the hell out of me as my favourite tuition teacher was there protecting me. Another dream was that I keep meeting new people; people whom I never see. It is scary for me as I am learning to interact with people again but my confidence has yet to regain. =(!
By yesterday, I was back to my depressed state. I do not know why I feel this overwhelming sadness loomed over me. I prayed about it but I could not feel You. Needless to say, I was even more upset.
Today, I was thinking should I even go church? I was beginning to doubt You. BUT, pastor how once mentioned when you don feel like coming to church it is the time that you really need to come. How true!
Today sermon taught me a lot and saw my faith rising again! There is a revival in me! I am so thankful for this spiritual breakthrough! The most salient thing I learnt is that be thankful for everything even when you ARE suffering(there is a difference between this n give thanks for suffering) and praise the LORD!
When I feel my faith is decreasing and whenever I tried to seek You but could not feel Your presence, You always have a plan for me returning to Your side.
Today sermon was really impactful; really close to my heart! It taught me how to be closer to You which I do not deny that I’m struggling!
Last week for the two consecutive nights, I had nightmares. One of them is me trying to run away from these two villains in my dream. The feeling is horrifying I tell you. The fear that consumes me. The running that never stop. I even dreamt of running to church to seek sanctuary but I ended up in my tuition class with robots learning computer. I do not know why it turn out that way but it did not freak the hell out of me as my favourite tuition teacher was there protecting me. Another dream was that I keep meeting new people; people whom I never see. It is scary for me as I am learning to interact with people again but my confidence has yet to regain. =(!
By yesterday, I was back to my depressed state. I do not know why I feel this overwhelming sadness loomed over me. I prayed about it but I could not feel You. Needless to say, I was even more upset.
Today, I was thinking should I even go church? I was beginning to doubt You. BUT, pastor how once mentioned when you don feel like coming to church it is the time that you really need to come. How true!
Today sermon taught me a lot and saw my faith rising again! There is a revival in me! I am so thankful for this spiritual breakthrough! The most salient thing I learnt is that be thankful for everything even when you ARE suffering(there is a difference between this n give thanks for suffering) and praise the LORD!
Saturday, September 09, 2006
i just feel like running away...
making a breakthrough...
somewhere, somehow...
"if i have wings
i could fly
You're all that i need
You are
Even if the world carve in around me
to You i'll still hold on
cuz You are the one I believe
Your're the One that created me
Jesus, because of You
I'm free!"
i still don't understand
i'm filled with so much shame
i'll have to bear the pain
over and over again...
but I know You will take away all this pain, all my sins and all my shame...
but still i feel like running away...
making a breakthrough...
somewhere, somehow...
"if i have wings
i could fly
You're all that i need
You are
Even if the world carve in around me
to You i'll still hold on
cuz You are the one I believe
Your're the One that created me
Jesus, because of You
I'm free!"
i still don't understand
i'm filled with so much shame
i'll have to bear the pain
over and over again...
but I know You will take away all this pain, all my sins and all my shame...
but still i feel like running away...
Thursday, September 07, 2006
randomness
My left brain:lets do something crazy!
My right brain:OKIES!
But...i was too tired.
(jerlyn apparrently wanted to run 1 round around her neighbourhood after returning home from mugging!)
My left brain:lets do something crazy!
My right brain:OKIES!
But...i was too tired.
(jerlyn apparrently wanted to run 1 round around her neighbourhood after returning home from mugging!)
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
just some randomness...
i miss my secondary school friends.
i regret not knowing people even more.
just reading their blog makes me sad.
i miss the days we had.
i miss xiany! i miss tty! i miss gongz! i miss kushina!!!!!!!!yea...a lot!!! esp kushina!!feel like gg to sit an aeroplane now and visit her in nepal!!
i miss anna! amanda voon! huiyi! just miss seeing them!
i realise people change. not a bad thing. but i just miss them!!
i miss you! i miss you! i miss you!
i miss my secondary school friends.
i regret not knowing people even more.
just reading their blog makes me sad.
i miss the days we had.
i miss xiany! i miss tty! i miss gongz! i miss kushina!!!!!!!!yea...a lot!!! esp kushina!!feel like gg to sit an aeroplane now and visit her in nepal!!
i miss anna! amanda voon! huiyi! just miss seeing them!
i realise people change. not a bad thing. but i just miss them!!
i miss you! i miss you! i miss you!
There is so much love in the air. Haha. Okies. I know it is not St Valentine's Day but there are small little things, small little messages, small little sms to hint of God's great love to me. I'm really thankful! Some things that I probably never experience before or maybe I will not notice before I know God personally.
It started with Rick Warren's book again. I must admit sometimes the book is just too profound for me like some philosophical book that only adults can understand but not the case of yesterday chapter. The message preached is awesome! LOVE!=)!
"The best use of life is love. The best expression of love is time. The best time to love is now!"
Do I need to explain?
Then, Huiying messaged me about love. (oh no..we are not les...haha).
I'm touched by her message! =)!
Then Jonathan messaged me a biblical quote and that "the Lord will set the path and see me thru'."
It is amazing as I hardly talk to Jon.
It really, really, really touches me! =)!
Lord, I'm so thankful of these friends!
We may not belong to the same church but we belong to the same God! =)!
It comes in time when I am frustrated with PW. LOL.
Then the night before I received a message from Cherie that God will not forsake me no matter what. The original message comes from Edmund.
I'm so touched beyond words.
Then, I chat with my grandma till 2am in the morning. It is so amazing!
I really, really, really love her a lot!
I realize the glamour she had is based on lot of sheer hard work which most people doesn't appreciate her.
Love! Love! Love!
It started with Rick Warren's book again. I must admit sometimes the book is just too profound for me like some philosophical book that only adults can understand but not the case of yesterday chapter. The message preached is awesome! LOVE!=)!
"The best use of life is love. The best expression of love is time. The best time to love is now!"
Do I need to explain?
Then, Huiying messaged me about love. (oh no..we are not les...haha).
I'm touched by her message! =)!
Then Jonathan messaged me a biblical quote and that "the Lord will set the path and see me thru'."
It is amazing as I hardly talk to Jon.
It really, really, really touches me! =)!
Lord, I'm so thankful of these friends!
We may not belong to the same church but we belong to the same God! =)!
It comes in time when I am frustrated with PW. LOL.
Then the night before I received a message from Cherie that God will not forsake me no matter what. The original message comes from Edmund.
I'm so touched beyond words.
Then, I chat with my grandma till 2am in the morning. It is so amazing!
I really, really, really love her a lot!
I realize the glamour she had is based on lot of sheer hard work which most people doesn't appreciate her.
Love! Love! Love!
Sunday, September 03, 2006
cedar spirit
hey cedarians out there plz check this website and vote for cedar as the best sch U!! thanks!
It is time to show our cedar spirit yet again.=)!
http://stinkandspill.stomp.com.sg/forums/showthread.php?t=246
You know what? i love cedar! even after leaving cedar, there is such a gargantuan sense of identity that i do not have with other schools.(like the school i am in...haha..no offence i love aj still BUT...)
you can help to fill in the uncompleted sentence.
anyways, simple things like this yet all the cedarians will gather around to support despite being in different schools.
This is what i called the sense of identity and loyalty which not many schools can instill in their students. You will always know where your heart resides even your physical self is not around.
I miss cedar cheers!
I miss cedar atmosphere!
I miss cedar food!
I won't say I miss being a cedarian cause once a cedarian always a cedarian!x)!
(p/s those non-cedarians..i wont mind if you help us vote..haha...tks!)
It is time to show our cedar spirit yet again.=)!
http://stinkandspill.stomp.com.sg/forums/showthread.php?t=246
You know what? i love cedar! even after leaving cedar, there is such a gargantuan sense of identity that i do not have with other schools.(like the school i am in...haha..no offence i love aj still BUT...)
you can help to fill in the uncompleted sentence.
anyways, simple things like this yet all the cedarians will gather around to support despite being in different schools.
This is what i called the sense of identity and loyalty which not many schools can instill in their students. You will always know where your heart resides even your physical self is not around.
I miss cedar cheers!
I miss cedar atmosphere!
I miss cedar food!
I won't say I miss being a cedarian cause once a cedarian always a cedarian!x)!
(p/s those non-cedarians..i wont mind if you help us vote..haha...tks!)
Saturday, September 02, 2006
just some randomness...
people are feeling the heat for exams but not me. weird. as usual. i'm more worried because i feel so nonchalent towards exams.
i was so inspired by pastor's sermon today that i immediately message to invite people to church. if only my friends were there.
i really want to reach out to the lost ones.
i'm so thankful tracy brought me to Heart of God.
My life has changed cause of her.
LOVE GOD! LOVE PEOPLE! LOVE LIFE!
(i am...=)!)
people are feeling the heat for exams but not me. weird. as usual. i'm more worried because i feel so nonchalent towards exams.
i was so inspired by pastor's sermon today that i immediately message to invite people to church. if only my friends were there.
i really want to reach out to the lost ones.
i'm so thankful tracy brought me to Heart of God.
My life has changed cause of her.
LOVE GOD! LOVE PEOPLE! LOVE LIFE!
(i am...=)!)