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Thursday, March 30, 2006
hey guys...to those who frequently cum to my blog..i'm so sorry to disappoint u guys again n again w no new entries.i'm not like some1 who can blog almost everyday.thanks to my fabulous crazy internet line who can hv no link on days tt i need it the most.
updates on my life are:
i'm joinin hockey( i hope that i'll hv the strength to cont thru j2 n tt i'll perserve despite the tough and hectic trainin.n i also hope tt i can make true new frenZ in hockey and tt our whole entire team will be truly bonded :> but each time i see this 2 best frenZ(seniors) in hockey so close n i think of u tty.i think how close we cld ended up like them but yet y?y?y must fate separate us?)
the reason i din join council which many endorse me to do so cuZ thanks to my stupid com....oh well..its just not fate
i cant rem the rest of my hol in details but i knew i went out every single day. n tt i really had enjoyed myself. the last day i went tracy church n i had a great time there. i feel great.revive wld be an accurate word to use. :) thanks tracy again for inviting me.
updates on my life are:
i'm joinin hockey( i hope that i'll hv the strength to cont thru j2 n tt i'll perserve despite the tough and hectic trainin.n i also hope tt i can make true new frenZ in hockey and tt our whole entire team will be truly bonded :> but each time i see this 2 best frenZ(seniors) in hockey so close n i think of u tty.i think how close we cld ended up like them but yet y?y?y must fate separate us?)
the reason i din join council which many endorse me to do so cuZ thanks to my stupid com....oh well..its just not fate
i cant rem the rest of my hol in details but i knew i went out every single day. n tt i really had enjoyed myself. the last day i went tracy church n i had a great time there. i feel great.revive wld be an accurate word to use. :) thanks tracy again for inviting me.
new term had started.saw new class.n guess wad 24/06.i love u guys!!!i nv see such a united and enthu class b4 esp in aj.i'm damn proud of u!!!u noe wad my other frenZ said abt us they were like ''jerlyn u are so lucky to be in this united class.'' i was so touched by those sentences
i'm a TEMPORARY class rep.see tt word temporary.yup.i think only for a mth. but guys i just wan to tell u all its not all abt glamour while holding this job.i hope tt i din piss u guys off.i know some of u guys r piss w me liao.sorry tt i cldnt divert all my attention to each n every1 of u guys.i'm trying my best. n i really hope tt u all cld understand cuZ i'm only one person. :)!if i really dun do a gd job just tell me off ok?i can accept criticism,k?n tt if i'm not gd enuff...haha..i will know after 1 mth.:P!
saw all my teachers.not bad la..but i miss joy tan as my phy teacher.... :(
lectures some r boring(as usual) but i'm getting used to it
jonathan n *ahem* went out together le.gosh...progess so fast.haha.i din say anything right?i'm so proud of myself...*beam*
i'm really thankful tt i took h1 phy.cldnt do the simple tutorial @ all.n tt i took h2 chem cuz i'm still loving chem.n most imptly i love 24/06!")!~
Monday, March 13, 2006
12/3/06
Friday- class outing
It was amazing how many people pon school on that day. Anyway, I heard from ping siew that it was really BorInGgG… haha. While those are stuggling to keep awake in school during the talk, I was having so much fun with my ex-class 21/06 pae. We went pizza hut for lunch, then bowling then pool, arcade and watched big mama house II. We had so much fun and james was making me laugh like mad. He is like my source of entertainment. I think he is funnier than the comedy! Haha…Heem mei was equally lame just like me! LOL. There was only 8 of us wee chen, james, jia xin, desmond, shuxuan, heem mei, yang ying and me. I think james was very mean; kept teasing jia xin with Christina. I pitied them man. I know how it feels like. Maybe we should set-up james with someone, he got a taste of it. During bowling, I actually had a STRIKE!!!!!hahaha… initially, I could not even hit any pints. The movie was ok. Not very funny. After which, we decided to separate and go home. Shuxuan, yangying and I decided to have dinner at long john. And boy, we gossip so much on our ogfs. Moreover, I realize my og is not pathetic at all. I thought it was quite sad there was only 4 guys in my og. There was only 2 in yangying one. I had such a wonderful day! I miss 21/06 pae! Thank you to everyone there for making that day so enjoyable. And oh I was the only 1 wearing school uniform because it was the last chance for me to do so. Haha. Lame. But I’m very sad that I’m not going to wear my cedar uniform any more. I am so looking forward to tomorrow class outing again! =>!
Sunday- outing with tty gong n tty og mates
I ended up going out with tty og mates today. Funny how things turn out. Anyway, it was cool because I make more new friends! =>! Although I don’t know most of their names, they are a nice bunch of people to hang out with. Very encouraging especially during pool. Haha. I sucked at it. We then went to the food court at cine and sat down and had a fun time chatting. What a great day I had too! But I can feel that tty is still sad because she could not make it to aj and that we did not have a common topic with her. I’m very sad too. I hope that this will not cause a strain in our relationship. Sigh. I wondered why fate is so cruel to separate us. I really do hope it is for a good reason.
Underneath these two happy days, there is a very sad me. Because i learnt sth new. I am sorry to say. I realise that after so much bullshit about personality is better than looks, I still do not think it is the case. Like for e.g. if you are not pretty enough people will not even give you the opportunity to speak. However, if you are pretty, people will give you the chance to speak. Unless your personality is ugly, then they would not let you continue speaking. Normally, I do not feel jealous. However, this time it was a total different story. I thought to myself why should I soaked myself in sadness over this. It was so childish of me. Most importantly, what do I gain from it? I rather be ugly but happy. Moreover, there are other stuffs such as people suffering in the Third-world country. Do looks really matter to them? Nope, it does not. So should I be bothered with this world of superficiality? Nope, I do not.
Friday- class outing
It was amazing how many people pon school on that day. Anyway, I heard from ping siew that it was really BorInGgG… haha. While those are stuggling to keep awake in school during the talk, I was having so much fun with my ex-class 21/06 pae. We went pizza hut for lunch, then bowling then pool, arcade and watched big mama house II. We had so much fun and james was making me laugh like mad. He is like my source of entertainment. I think he is funnier than the comedy! Haha…Heem mei was equally lame just like me! LOL. There was only 8 of us wee chen, james, jia xin, desmond, shuxuan, heem mei, yang ying and me. I think james was very mean; kept teasing jia xin with Christina. I pitied them man. I know how it feels like. Maybe we should set-up james with someone, he got a taste of it. During bowling, I actually had a STRIKE!!!!!hahaha… initially, I could not even hit any pints. The movie was ok. Not very funny. After which, we decided to separate and go home. Shuxuan, yangying and I decided to have dinner at long john. And boy, we gossip so much on our ogfs. Moreover, I realize my og is not pathetic at all. I thought it was quite sad there was only 4 guys in my og. There was only 2 in yangying one. I had such a wonderful day! I miss 21/06 pae! Thank you to everyone there for making that day so enjoyable. And oh I was the only 1 wearing school uniform because it was the last chance for me to do so. Haha. Lame. But I’m very sad that I’m not going to wear my cedar uniform any more. I am so looking forward to tomorrow class outing again! =>!
Sunday- outing with tty gong n tty og mates
I ended up going out with tty og mates today. Funny how things turn out. Anyway, it was cool because I make more new friends! =>! Although I don’t know most of their names, they are a nice bunch of people to hang out with. Very encouraging especially during pool. Haha. I sucked at it. We then went to the food court at cine and sat down and had a fun time chatting. What a great day I had too! But I can feel that tty is still sad because she could not make it to aj and that we did not have a common topic with her. I’m very sad too. I hope that this will not cause a strain in our relationship. Sigh. I wondered why fate is so cruel to separate us. I really do hope it is for a good reason.
Underneath these two happy days, there is a very sad me. Because i learnt sth new. I am sorry to say. I realise that after so much bullshit about personality is better than looks, I still do not think it is the case. Like for e.g. if you are not pretty enough people will not even give you the opportunity to speak. However, if you are pretty, people will give you the chance to speak. Unless your personality is ugly, then they would not let you continue speaking. Normally, I do not feel jealous. However, this time it was a total different story. I thought to myself why should I soaked myself in sadness over this. It was so childish of me. Most importantly, what do I gain from it? I rather be ugly but happy. Moreover, there are other stuffs such as people suffering in the Third-world country. Do looks really matter to them? Nope, it does not. So should I be bothered with this world of superficiality? Nope, I do not.
Friday, March 10, 2006
Ajc-orientation II
Hmm…where should I start? Lets see…my new OG? I find that my new OG not bad la. haha. So much for trying to write in good and clear English. Sigh. Anyway 2nd orientation was boring. But in a good way I managed to meet more new friends. Like eg Valerie zhang. Hard to find some1 whom I can just hit off instantly. N also many from my og. Hmm seem like history repeating itself again huh? 1st few month in a new environment, I’ll very happy then after that I’ll be super depress and sad n realize that I do not fit into any groups because I hop around and make too many friends. And I don’t want to be like that. I rather do not have many friends but just 1 best buddy to stick around with.
I just pray that I will be happy in aj. That’s all I’m asking for. I know that there’ll be some people who wont like me and I wont like them. But really this is just part and parcel of life. I should not get myself really affected by it. N most importantly, I must stay true to myself and not be someone else and try to please people. N also I should stop judging people. Because judging someone else will be tantamount to me hating that person. N guess who suffers the most in then end? Not that person but me because my heart is inebriated with rancour. I hope that I’ll just do my best to be nice to everyone but I should not be upset if people who do not know me hate me. I shall not be affected. Must be thick skin. As long as in my heart I know I do my best not to hurt anyone. Another lesson I should learn is that I must learn not to be selfish, I guess I’m still am. I realize giving is more joy than keeping it to myself. N this is the joy that I want not the grades and material acquisitions. To the people out there, if I hurt your feelings in one way or another, be it now or the future, I just want to say I’m sorry. I really do not meant to hurt you. N that I did my best not to do so.
That was about my friends. Now is about my family. I realize how much I seek for father’s love. The emptiness in my heart. It alright I guess? Because I never really feel one so its not as bad as those felt it and eventually did not have it. At least I did not have an abusive dad. I’m thankful of it. My mom as usual is depressed. Although at times I dislike my mom, I still love her. I love her courage for enduring me and raising me up. She’s not my dream mother. But I know she did her best to protect me. Lastly but most importantly, my grandma who did everything to fill up the emptiness in me. For giving so much love in my life. My resolution of making more time for you seem to fail. I’m really sorry. I should not have find you naggy. Especially you are getting old. Friends can enter and leave in my life but you never will and I love you for that, and I swear that I’ll do my best to make more time for you. I do not want to regret it later. I’m really scared of losing you!
That’s all for today reflection.haha…
I just pray that I will be happy in aj. That’s all I’m asking for. I know that there’ll be some people who wont like me and I wont like them. But really this is just part and parcel of life. I should not get myself really affected by it. N most importantly, I must stay true to myself and not be someone else and try to please people. N also I should stop judging people. Because judging someone else will be tantamount to me hating that person. N guess who suffers the most in then end? Not that person but me because my heart is inebriated with rancour. I hope that I’ll just do my best to be nice to everyone but I should not be upset if people who do not know me hate me. I shall not be affected. Must be thick skin. As long as in my heart I know I do my best not to hurt anyone. Another lesson I should learn is that I must learn not to be selfish, I guess I’m still am. I realize giving is more joy than keeping it to myself. N this is the joy that I want not the grades and material acquisitions. To the people out there, if I hurt your feelings in one way or another, be it now or the future, I just want to say I’m sorry. I really do not meant to hurt you. N that I did my best not to do so.
That was about my friends. Now is about my family. I realize how much I seek for father’s love. The emptiness in my heart. It alright I guess? Because I never really feel one so its not as bad as those felt it and eventually did not have it. At least I did not have an abusive dad. I’m thankful of it. My mom as usual is depressed. Although at times I dislike my mom, I still love her. I love her courage for enduring me and raising me up. She’s not my dream mother. But I know she did her best to protect me. Lastly but most importantly, my grandma who did everything to fill up the emptiness in me. For giving so much love in my life. My resolution of making more time for you seem to fail. I’m really sorry. I should not have find you naggy. Especially you are getting old. Friends can enter and leave in my life but you never will and I love you for that, and I swear that I’ll do my best to make more time for you. I do not want to regret it later. I’m really scared of losing you!
That’s all for today reflection.haha…