always.

Friday, January 20, 2006

birthday surprises!!

ok.let me do a 24-hr recount of my bday.i'm like the happiest girl in the world.ok maybe not the world.but yar.everything was a far cry from my 16th bday.i learnt that from simple things it can yet derived great pleasures n that great expectations led to great depressions.oh well.nice quotes right?ahaha.well it started @ 11++pm on 19 jan.me n gong talked @ length.tok till like 1am in the morning.its has been such a long time since we did that n had so much topics.then some of my og members sent me happy bday msges.@ the end of today i've received 10 msges.n i'm like nvm that happy in my life cuZ last i @ most only receive 1 lor.ahha.yar.then i woke up.go to sch.n 1st period in the morning.my class got me a bday cake.i was shocked beyond words la.cuZ its like no1 hv ever done that for me in surprise b4.n i really mean NEVER.i was so touched!!!!thanks 21/06 for everything!!!!n the card is so sweeeeet.oh man.i love u guys.u guys make my life in aj worthwhile!!!i don noe how to describe it.it was awesome man!!!fantastic fabulous!!!!!!n there's yanting for publicizing my bday!!!ahhaha.thks for doing that!!!n there's the ppl who encourages me to go for hockey.i've so much fun in there too!!!then i meet cia n xiany to celebrate.we ate @ seoul garden which i think the service not very gd cuZ we sounded rude?!oh well anyway we had so much fun toking!!!!!!!!yay!!!!!n we eat till so late till i reached home @ 11.30pm.n oh we took neoprints but the machines really sucky!n i LOoOOVeSSsssssssss cia n xiany pressie for me n i felt so horrible.i really felt very bad la.its like the 1st time i din care abt getting gifts for her.sad.n cia sort of like shave her head.make her look like her bro.which is not very gd cuZ she look so boy.gosh.its scary.but i think cia changes even more.but i like her attitude cuZ she doesnt care wad ppl think of her.she's like gg againt society but moving towards herself.for most of the youths in s'pore.its definitely not the case.n that ends my super nicest bday i ever had.thank u guys form those sending me msges to xiany n cia.thanks for making me feel happy.for marking this day as my most memorable 1.thk u guys!!!!!!!i love u n every1 of u!!!

Sunday, January 08, 2006

aj orientation.acutico.protheus

ok.here i am.after a wk in orientation.i find there's sth wrong w me not any1.its just me.i just dun seem to fit into any grp.ahahha.oh well..i must learn to be more thick skin then.1st day in aj was boring.2nd day better.3rd day was gd.last day eh....i think every1's tired ahahha.but the last part of so called cf was fun.ahahah.so this is it.my orientation week.like nth fun or interesting.i met a crescent gurl call yan ting.she's damn funny la.so blur.but sad la.gonna separate again.oh well.i wish i can be in same class as sandy though i don noe wad she choose for subj combi.surprise that she's in here.thot she'll make it to nj.hmm.ok.aj is not as boring as i thot.but its quite chena as wad amanda voon had said but there r so many rules le.sad.i'm now very scared of my class.sigh.i shall just take things 1 step as a time.kk nth much to say.tata

Monday, January 02, 2006

new yr resolutions

Well..lets start this new yr with a right note.new yr resolutions. I nv make those.ok.maybe I made it but usu cant rem wad I made already.so yup.o’s over n there’s a huge obstacle ahead which is A’s sigh.but for now I just want to enjoy my orientation. I think seniors from aj r sweet by contacting us.i’m brimming with excitement n fear tmr.i realize I nv be able to adapt.don think this time will be any diff.but I think I mellow a lot though I still get angry w myself n my mom easily.for e.g I don care abt being in the ‘in’ grp anymore or if I’m popular.i jus hope that in my new sch I’ll just find A gd frenz.i’ll be super happy.ppl like pinyu suhui kushina who r easy to get along with.i’m not ready for sch but I’ve accept the fact that sch hols is over.n I don feel sad or anything but thankful that I really had a wonderful rest n its time back to work.n I don feel anything special like it’s a new yr mean a new start.my often perfect world is so distorted that I feel so depressed.hence I’ve learn not to expect a lot from my life.in fact learn to appreciate the surprises of life.n I’ve thot I’m no longer a perfectionist just cuZ I’m no longer tidy.but the fact is that I’m still am.n also I’ve becum so fickle-minded tt I hate myself.as if so fickle-minded that I cant even decide who I’m exactly as.ok so here’s my new yr resolutions,hopefully it’ll make me a happier person.

1>I’ll change my perspectives.i realize no matter how bad that thing is.as long as I’m happy.it’ll b fine

2>I’ll be patient n not lose my temper easily.(most likely unfulfilled)

3>spend more time with grandma

4>learn to do hsehold chores

5>I’ll not tell ppl my bday

6>I’m gg on a healthy way of diet.

7>I’ll live each day the fullest

8>I’ll do things that I fear the most.

I heard that there is no point making resolutions.oh well.cant hurt to try anyway.so here it is my list n hopefully I ‘ll be able to do so.i’m gg to enjoy tmr.jerlyn OUT!