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Thursday, October 28, 2004
Last day of being a sec 3!
ok.here.i go.don feel like its the last day of sch cuZ usu last day of sch is a half day n we will hv plenty of time shopping.but not today.morning went to school n had decided not to go with anna cause i was having terrible menstrual pain.not that terrible but i just want to sleep.yet still feel the pain.compare to the other times.i do not think it was that pain.so yup.but still it was pain enough to make me not to go out with anna cheryl huiyi n amanda voon.so yup.in the end the pain subsides n i decided to go with them so yup. wen to eat long john n amanda accidentally spill coke onto hy.the funny thing is it spill all over hy's skirt n yet she's not frustrated.instead.shes frustrated that her bag got some coke sprinkle onto iy.ahaha.ok.i'm rather bad.eat till 4.then realise that time pass real fast n so yup.we went to take neoprints @ heeren.n yucks all of them i look so ugly man.sigh.nvm.then after that we went shoppin for a while.amanda was shoppin for gift for indra.n she bought a leather sthing.think its a pencil box.hmm.anyway that thing cost 22 bucks le but it really very meaningful. i mean amanda spend really much effort thinking of a gift for her.so it was really sweet. :) n yar after that cheryl n amanda left(seriously i din know that amanda's mom is so strict) she got a curfew. i mean i din even have.last time my mom will still call but now 8 plus come bk.my mom wont even care.so yup.more freedm i guess.so shop a bit more b4 we left for home.b4 goin home went toliet n its like wow the toliet but its heeren.wad can i expect.i mean its really nice even the soap comes out automatically.yar.sigh.remind me of acs.ok so yup went home update my blog.tryin to squeeze some time to tidy my rm.n i'm excited abt tmr outing @ beach n oh lord please don let it rain!
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Emotionless
emotionless.nice word.guess its the best word to express my so-called- feelings now.well.not exactly feelings.but ya know the state of mind.even i'm sad.i've got no emotions.even if i'm happy i've got no emotion.its only when i'm pissed then i feel the anger even for a slightest reason.sigh.cant be bother.great i hate my mom.its official.cant she just stop whinning.i shall now spend as much $$ as i cld so that to prove u're very rich.whatever la.cant stand u.i mean my mom.siggh.ok.yesterday went sch com lab n try to use the com but guess that all the comp just hates me n crash onto me.ok nvm.reach home then when i'm already going to sleep.my cousin woke me up by giving me a call and taught me the step-by-step of setting up internet connections or else i would not be here.but that is a bad thing because once my hand touches the keyboard i just could not stop.sigh.i actually want to tidy up my room but look its already like wad time!?i clear till daytime man.n even it i cld not have done finish.hello its like my room!?hate it man.cant belive y m i so lazy.anyway read finish ''can u keep a secret?'' by sophie.kinelle.nice author.wish i can be a director then capture everything in a movie.it'll be a nice romantic comedy!ahaha.just like the book a lot anyway must thank qy for that.so yup.tmr goin out with anna they all.just go out for fun.but i'm damn tired la.don feel like doin so.just forcing myself cause i just dont want to go home so early.so yup.actually got a few more things to add but just can't think of any.so i shall end it here today!
Thursday, October 21, 2004
i'm confused
have the survey thingy thingy.think its all about finding yourself more.but i think i'm in conflict with myself because everything seem the same to me.i'm confused.really.but it say that the inner most of myself is actually socialable although i don think so.funny.okthe 1st test was rather alright but the 2nd was a total screw up n oh read bella entry.its sth abt sendin ritZ off!?i'm confused thot that i justs saw her a few days ago.is she just off for hol or wad?i'm very scared that she have moved out of singapore permanently.y din she tell?y m i so lazy n hardly went up n see my frenZ.geeZ.i'm torn apart.i'm sad.alright.ritz is a great frenZ.without her i'm still a loner.n oh came up today n saw ty in pissin mood.haiZ...n oh durin this DISC course.i kinda of get freak up by this person.but yar she always did.so yar.hmm i've got nth much to say except that yesterday went n scream n yell @ mom cuZ she started the y din i study.i don see the point of studyin since i got higher for not studyin but because i've got a gd teacher n for studyin n yet got a lousy teacher(no..mr goh is a great teacher.but having too many relief teachers n hv being exposed diff mtds of learnin.so yar.i'm very lost).so yar..i tried very hard for amaths n i did alright!?i drop from a1 to e8!its like hello!?no matter how hard maths paper is i nv failed but i've been failin like shit now!?this showed that in sec3 teachers do really play a great role in exams results it not just abt the stu workin hard cuZ i really did.sigh..n oh wanna go home but din.just lingering for a while more.just get too upset in life.see xianny so busy.she look very tired n drained out if i can say.for me i'm too relax.i want to find the purpose of life n i really do.i want to do things that i really wanted to.mayb i cld work n dance n study @ the same time.thats my aim for the hol.hmm.i just want to make use of youth but i just don hv the motivation to do so.save me.i want to believe in GOD.but i have doubts.cuZ they say only believe in christ then can u b near to god.but i just cant explain.i don noe how to.but now whatever la.just gonna end here.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
i thot the day b4 yesterday was bad enuff until today
ok..i fail amaths n phy which is like!?shit la..amaths was prepared abt it but not phy cuZ i hv put in quite a no of effort lor..i think mom gottat kill me even if the mark is gonna be upon 90% but then still i fail.how bad can that get.then somemore the phy tuition.i think selyva is gd but i still don noe wads was screw up in that paper.for amaths.can help but blame eric tan cuZ when 1st time come sec 3 i've got a1 n it drop till to e8.a BIT not significant.L1R5 was a disappointing 21..sheesh man...my aim was like wad!?below 15!?now wad kind of shit is this?anyway i don think blog is rather liberal in the way that u cant tel ur real inner personal feeling like hatred of sb in here.anyway i'm sayin i hate these 2 ppl.hate is such distasteful(if there is such a word) feelin but just cant help it right.that asshole cld @ least tell me earlier.make me look so stupid.still mention abt their fathers in front of me.hello!? i've got feelings ok!?the other keep cuttin me off as if i whine so much..@ least i'm betta than u lor.hypocrite.i bet u r tokin behind my bk.whatever..then see ya just now.give me the fake smile all the way..wad the...piss off man.whatever. i bet u will be sayin sth abt how cum i beum so close with someone u don like.well..wad can i say!?frenZship is juz form littat.i rather hv her as my frenZ than being a loner right!?then u will say i'll becomin more n more like her.well wad can i say.hv u ever care how i'm uncomfortable i am whenever u r in the other grp.i nv even tok behind ur bks lor.whatever.u can tok whatever u like.but i can hang out with those losers or ppl u hates who some r my really gd frenZ.
ok anyway.i'm suppose to be here cont my hol story.n oh din go out with wq n ty cuZ every1 is indecisive(okok..mainly i'm the one)but nvm...so yup in the end on sat went orchard with amanda voon cuZ we're goin to her church later.so yup while in orchard we're in fareast n i chose the clothes n she wear n vice versa.ok so yup.not bad la.its better than being @ home n playin com games till i'm sick of it.din get anything..then went to her church.nice place but there are hypocrites.as usual.felt that i've being forced to b christian but i hv doubts although there is one time i really wanted to.but i realize that i hv no commitments so yup.so in the end went home n sun went out with xinli.so that xinli can intro me to skincare products.in the end went to buy clothes.got a skirt @ $25 whose original price was hundred bucks.so yup feel real gd.but grandma want me to tailor it.so hv to spent more $$.but nvm.i'm reaaly happie with it.n oh bought some skincare products but still no effect.waitin to go facial salon(is that wat u call!?)anyway found real cheap but think goin to tp(realise there offer lots of these facial treatment)don noe shuld go 2dae or not cuZ no1 go with me.fell a bit scared.but i rather go alone than goin with the two.its like they wont even care 1 lor!?ask them ish beggin shit!?anyway even ask 1 of the 2 she will choose to follow her instead of me wad..so wad can i do!?anyway don think they b interested anyway.asked xinli but her studies r real bad.want her to study hard for o's.dun want to bother her yet.but cant wait till that time.search for jobs.n found a suitable 1.but haven got the courageto pick up the phone n call.relyin on amanda voon n anna(i'm sure anna will the 1 callin :P)okok.hmm.yup so that was it..actually nth much but just very frustrated for the past few days.anyway manage to sell the last tin of cookies to amanda.so it was *phew*.uh huh. ok mayb sth happier.theres my geo.quite surprise but yar.just glad that manage to bluff my way thru but think that mrs ong is a great teacher from a c5 to a2.must realli thank her cuZ i din study that hard for geo!so yup...anyway we were acting funny b4 geo paper was given out.practically cross everything..ahaha.okok.cant describe but it was hilarious :)!so yup hope this can be the end of my agony!
ok anyway.i'm suppose to be here cont my hol story.n oh din go out with wq n ty cuZ every1 is indecisive(okok..mainly i'm the one)but nvm...so yup in the end on sat went orchard with amanda voon cuZ we're goin to her church later.so yup while in orchard we're in fareast n i chose the clothes n she wear n vice versa.ok so yup.not bad la.its better than being @ home n playin com games till i'm sick of it.din get anything..then went to her church.nice place but there are hypocrites.as usual.felt that i've being forced to b christian but i hv doubts although there is one time i really wanted to.but i realize that i hv no commitments so yup.so in the end went home n sun went out with xinli.so that xinli can intro me to skincare products.in the end went to buy clothes.got a skirt @ $25 whose original price was hundred bucks.so yup feel real gd.but grandma want me to tailor it.so hv to spent more $$.but nvm.i'm reaaly happie with it.n oh bought some skincare products but still no effect.waitin to go facial salon(is that wat u call!?)anyway found real cheap but think goin to tp(realise there offer lots of these facial treatment)don noe shuld go 2dae or not cuZ no1 go with me.fell a bit scared.but i rather go alone than goin with the two.its like they wont even care 1 lor!?ask them ish beggin shit!?anyway even ask 1 of the 2 she will choose to follow her instead of me wad..so wad can i do!?anyway don think they b interested anyway.asked xinli but her studies r real bad.want her to study hard for o's.dun want to bother her yet.but cant wait till that time.search for jobs.n found a suitable 1.but haven got the courageto pick up the phone n call.relyin on amanda voon n anna(i'm sure anna will the 1 callin :P)okok.hmm.yup so that was it..actually nth much but just very frustrated for the past few days.anyway manage to sell the last tin of cookies to amanda.so it was *phew*.uh huh. ok mayb sth happier.theres my geo.quite surprise but yar.just glad that manage to bluff my way thru but think that mrs ong is a great teacher from a c5 to a2.must realli thank her cuZ i din study that hard for geo!so yup...anyway we were acting funny b4 geo paper was given out.practically cross everything..ahaha.okok.cant describe but it was hilarious :)!so yup hope this can be the end of my agony!
oh forget abt this.went to meet my kor on mon.yar.for cookies.he was real nice la.quite gentlemen.everything was real fast n oh he doesnt look as nerdy as i expected a typical used to be an RI guy will be like so yup.most imptly i got the 8 bucks(ahaha.i really hope emm will read this..ahaha)
Sunday, October 17, 2004
i'm really having a bad day
ok..i guess the title of this entry say a lot cuZ i'm really havin a bad day..got bk results today.n yar.it sucks anyway this stupid sch com hang on me twice n it was alwaes halfway thru' this long entry of min so yup u can guess i'm a BIT frustrated now.so yupp.i've been deprive of internet so long. n now finally get to use it.n my home haaas no internet thus i keep playin the same old com games n its making mad n sick but i cant do anything right.no gd shows on tv either.so yup.maybe i shuld start my blog in a lighter note.let see we shall go all the way back to the day i finished my geo exam...
ok..so after geo exam. i went to watch white chicks with my classmates(nav,tracy,amanda tan,butt,ahma).so yup.i uess wg n ty will skin me alive @ that point of time when i told them i 'm watchin with them cuZ i've actually arranged to watch with them on thur.so yup.feel kinda of funny cuZ its my 1st time goin out with them realize that the next day was amanda tan's b.dae.don know if they did give that pressie or not.ahaha.think it'll real hard to find the one.so yup.nav was nice as if she make sure i fit into the grp.its not that i feel awkard but more of feelin tired.esp stupid me went to bring 2 geo txbks n the file in it.damn heavy la.ahma thot i was bored but nah i wasnt lathe show was real great n oh i kept meetin suhui @ cine..when i 1st call out to her she din respond but all her stnicks frenZ did.make me so maluthen saw her again @ cinema.show was rrreally worth the $$.so after watchin.went far east for a while but leave almost immediately when we reach there.nv got the chance to take neoprints with them cuZ they r very unwillingly.almak.ok.nvm.ouch my thumb hurts now. so i stop now 4 a while n come bk again.
ok..so after geo exam. i went to watch white chicks with my classmates(nav,tracy,amanda tan,butt,ahma).so yup.i uess wg n ty will skin me alive @ that point of time when i told them i 'm watchin with them cuZ i've actually arranged to watch with them on thur.so yup.feel kinda of funny cuZ its my 1st time goin out with them realize that the next day was amanda tan's b.dae.don know if they did give that pressie or not.ahaha.think it'll real hard to find the one.so yup.nav was nice as if she make sure i fit into the grp.its not that i feel awkard but more of feelin tired.esp stupid me went to bring 2 geo txbks n the file in it.damn heavy la.ahma thot i was bored but nah i wasnt lathe show was real great n oh i kept meetin suhui @ cine..when i 1st call out to her she din respond but all her stnicks frenZ did.make me so maluthen saw her again @ cinema.show was rrreally worth the $$.so after watchin.went far east for a while but leave almost immediately when we reach there.nv got the chance to take neoprints with them cuZ they r very unwillingly.almak.ok.nvm.ouch my thumb hurts now. so i stop now 4 a while n come bk again.
Monday, October 04, 2004
after chi exam
ahhaa..com crash...then the whole hard disk is changed.lost that bloody impt paper that i need to make my internet connection works...thats y i'm in sch n only got this bloody chance to update now..ahahha...yar..its after chi exams..eng paper is a goner...cuZ i felt so sick that day that i cant think..then 4 chi best din even read the q just copy n paste the whole compre into the q..i think i'm the best man...actually shuld be studyin with tracy now..ahahha...look what r we doin..using internet..which means that study in sch doesnt mean there will be no temptations..ahhaha..okok...wads up with my life..nth much..just realize how messy my bedrm ish..sigh..how to study littat..i think my aim for EYE is gone liao...ahahaha.. i think its a bit unrealistic ba...sigh...this wk will just be studyin like shit n oh realize that i cant stop thinkin of sth...n oh i'm shoo damn sick of eatin guides cookies liao but there is nth @ all to eat..surprise that i'm not sick yet considerin the amt of choco i ate this wk...n oh amanda voon say her frenZ frm pungol guides got their cookies as free as food rationin...OMG!!!!cant believe so gd lor...can eat like shit but i'm very sad of it liao..ahaha..ok..nvm..gotta study liao.