always.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Ahhhh!! I wish I do not have curfew!

My zone went to watch Valentine Day with Dominic after reunion dinner!!

So, Cherie Walter, Alvi and Polly has a date without me. ):

Who wants to watch with me still? Haha.

And I did not wake up early to help my gran past dma today.

Shoot me! Bang Bang Bang!

Yea, I was sad that I did not catch the movie

but I went home helping out with my grandma.

To be honest, my heart belongs to elsewhere recently.

And that she keep repeating the same old stories of her,

it is really boring and dry. (Trust me, I have heard it since I was young)

But this is love, isnt it?

Love is a commitment.

Love is a promise to remain faithful even when it is dry and boring.

What Ivan shared on Twitter is cool,

Maturity is being able to remain faithful to ur commitmnts long aft e "feeling" is gone! Live abve e influence of ur feelings.

I call this Mature Love.

I still love her when I kiss her good nights on the cheeks.

(: (:

Had some time alone and thoughts to myself on Fri morning while catching up tut,

I thought I got to fiercely protect what and who I love and what I dream.

Because if your dreams and love can be so easily taken away, then perhaps it is not your dreams and love after all.

While I watched The Imaginarium with Ray, Endi and Sab the other day,

I thought you cannot name a price for your dreams.

They are priceless.

And the same goes for love too.

What Cherie shared was so true, I realise I am a person who is serious for life.

That is why I am so calculative with my time.

That is why I feel so vexed if I do not reap what I invested.

I thought how pretty amazing it is the my leader is actually younger than me. (: (:

She led me when she was 14 and I was 17.

And she is still leading me when she is 18 and I am now 21.

Pretty cool huh? We really grew up together. (: (:

Cherie is amazing because in everything she does, she do her best, even in the smallest things.

That is personal excellence.

It is sweet that while I was out eating dinner with my friends and Fifi saw me at Bukit Timah

and texted me "hey i saw you. haha!"

To me, it was sweet because I never felt so close to my leaders until now.

I mean I will never imagine a zone leader from another zone to text me.

It is always the smallest things.

It is always the relationships. (: (:

I cannot imagine how Pastors and leaders feel

when each time people walk out

and yet they still continue loving people.

Sometimes, you just got to realise we really do not deserve their love and time.

Who am I really?

To me, it is just so hard to continue loving when it failed.

In monetary sense, it is so hard to keep investing a stock that keep makes you lose money.

Imagine the broken trust.

That is why got to fiercely protect your idealism. (:

What a long post, most people probably find it boring.