always.

Thursday, October 01, 2009

I wanna eat my choco hello panda as it makes me happy. (:

Today is the day I learnt so much.

I think it is sad that when you already 20 years old and yet you cannot decide your life.

That your life is always being determined what the society says and influences.

For instance, it is sad that you are 20 years old and you get into a relationship because all your friends are having one when you know that the person is not the right one.

Another instance, you see how attractive for people to stay in hall, their lives is exciting but you know that it is not exactly for you because you are not really interested but you are just attracted.

It is so sad that when you are already 20 years old, and yet what your parents and friends say can decide your life.

This is the best years of your life.

I am so thankful that I am free to decide my path, my youth.

That my path is not decided by my mom or my friends.

I feel liberated that I do not have to make decisions because of what others are making or rather I am affected by the decisions of what others are making.

Because as I am reading my socio notes

I realise everything is imaginary

the cool image of being busy with uni activities and being in relationship

is all the works of post-modernism.

This is where they make you feel achieve the state of nirvana by following the capitalistic society, by desiring things beyond what you need.

Once you achieve it, you became disappointed because even you have the materialistic goods/relationship, you did not achieve the exact same feeling that was suppose to come with the goal.

And when expectations are not met, there are disappointments and hurts.

This explains so much fragmentation in society today

This explains so much broken dreams in the world.

This is because during the best years of our lives, we desire all that that we do not really want ourselves.

And when you realise the best years of your life is gone, some things in life will never be able to retrieve it back.

My mind is clear and I do not feel I was brainwashed.

Because ideologies can easily changed and switched.

There is always the rise and fall of ideologies.

However, when I see lives, real simple people living their lives,

showing that the nirvana state we so long for can be achieved.

I know that this is for real.

This is real stuff.

You know in econs we learn such stuff as real money and near money.

How near money is actually a good substitute of real money

and it confuses people that it actually distorts the entire monetary policy

and the economic mechanism which triggers the recession.

This is the same in our lives right now:

we need to be able to differentiate real and near money of our lives.