always.

Monday, December 29, 2008

I met Jon Pang at popular today

and I thought to myself

whoa one year has passed!

You know one year has passed and yet you can still feel the same emptiness

the same search for longing

the weird quesey feeling of wanting something but yet you do not know what.

but you can also know that one year later

you felt that you have changed you have been moulded

you are now secure.

truly, I felt the latter. =)

I always know I have changed from the past

but I do not know how much

because you got to understand character moulding doesnt come overnight

it comes bit by bit

and it hurts in the process of discipleship

but standing besides Jon Pang today

( btw i am refering him as one year, not that i am holier than him pls AHHA. i am so soriee to refer u as one year)

I just know I have changed.

I have become someone stronger.

I cannot explain what but something spiritual that me myself was amused by myself.

I know many people have laughed at me,

for my faith, for spending sooo much time in church

while a normal Christian spent 2 hrs in a week.

but truly, i never regret.

it pays to be idealistic

but i know in the end i am glad i din not give up thus far

and i dun intend to give up either.

i am glad i give up the best years of my life for God, for pastors, for leaders, for people.

i was reminded of danielle testimony in church over the weekend.

she is a 20 sth lady who struck cancer last year

and she shared her testimony that how her leaders actually 4th Dimension her sharing healing testimony on stage one day

and i cried,

because I know there is no place where dreams truly come true.

Is there a vision you are willingly to die for today?

Monday, December 22, 2008

=) FAITH.

There's a price to pay.

It is called the law of opportunity cost. haha.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

new skin. kinda of reflecting me.

minimalist.

haha. but i cant help thinking its a bit childish for me.

feel like i am a mature kid somehow.

gotta carry myself even more.

haha.

i need to grow.

i will grow.

i must grow.

a heart of steel.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

I saw someone sow into someone's life

yet someone still chose to walk out of someone's life.

and i simply have to say it breaks my heart.

Will I ever be able to take this pain if I am faced with the same situation, knowing the sacrifice?

Will I still pay the cost knowing the consequence?

Honestly, it pays to be radical, to be idealistic.

I am thankful of discipleship class with Dominic.

Old people like ME haha should never backslide from church

because it gives church the stability.

how true, i cannot imagine if Dom, Lynette, Jamie and Cherie backsliding in my lifetime.

Because I know they will always be there. =)

Friday, December 12, 2008

Firmness and Decisions.

Sunday, December 07, 2008

In midst of everything, I have decided to stop complaining and start thanking.

I thank God I am in heart of God church.

(and yesh I would rather get persecutions to be in this church than to have a carefree life in other churches)

I thank God I have great leaders and Pastor over my life.

I thank God for a great team.

I thank God that I am in Singapore so that I will not be shot for my faith.

I am so thankful! =)

Friday, December 05, 2008

Who is the person who tagged you?

AUDREY NG! LOL.

Relationship between you and her?

you think le? LOL

Five impressions of her:

-she loves people;she's very compassionate

-she walks very confidently

-she loves to giggle

-she is someone who has many talents

-she is just like me(HAHA!)

If she becomes your enemy,will you?

I will love her because Jesus says must love your enemy. "D!

What would you like to say to the person you like very much?

I never thought of it before. I will just say whatever I feel like saying cuz I'm a spontaneous person.

Characteristic I like about myself?

Myself!

Characteristic I hate about myself?

None because I know I will become better with each discipleship though it hurts.

For the person you hate you say?

I love you!

What do people feel about you?

I am crazy!

Your crush?

uncountables. they are just illusions in your life! HAHA

pass this to 10 people.

1.Pollyna

2.Tracy

3.Beryl

4.Weiling

5. Wan Ting

6. Tzeyin

7.Emmeline

8.Xiany

9.Gongx

10.Joycelyn

If 5 & 7 are together?

They are junior and senior and they don't know each other! LOL

What does 5 like?

STITCH!

What colour does 9 likes?

GREEN! HAHA

Say sth about no 8?

She is funny and she loves to sing and I miss her terribly!

Who is no 2?

Someone who has weird imaginations. Be careful she can imagine you as animals! lol!

Who's no 10 best friend?

Yiting! haha!

who is the sexiest among the 10?

GONGX! lol! =)

what colour does 4 like?

PINK! haha

Is 4 single?

yesh!

Your relationship with 1?

WE ARE THE WORLD BESTEST TEAM PLAYER!

Are 5 & 6 best friends?

haha no links!

9 surname?

gwee!

say something to 8.

something

say something to help 9?

???? HAHA dun understand the qns. oh wait gambetta for jap exams!! haha!

What does 1 admire?

Jesus, pastors and cherie!

Where does 1 live?

Yishun!

Does 10 of them knows who you like?

I think so! I cannot keep secrets! LOL

Say something to 6 when you see her

bestie!

10 spouse?

I would like to find out too joycelyn! Lol!

Thursday, December 04, 2008

I think I have a great team out there.

Tracy has weird imaginations.

Pollyna has high class jokes.

Jerlyn is just being weird.

Fiona is always faithful.

Cherie is always mature.

We are gg to explode! I love my team. Do you? =)

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Pardon me, I just have to say this:

I LOVE HEART OF GOD CHURCH!

I am so glad that I am in heart of God church

and not any other churches.

There is just sth special here that I cannot describe.

Just sth tangible.

Haha!