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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

19th birthday...nothing glamorous about it! in fact i do not feel that i am 19(which is a good thing).haha

was unhappy with things but i guess i am struggling with insecurities, though some unpleasant stuff were really uncalled for and i felt i did not deserve it.and because of that i was unhappy for a couple of days.you know the worst feelings u can get is that you have the right to be angry but you cannot be angry,but in the end you let out your anger and everyone is upset and you felt you have sinned terribly.and oh i wasnt refering to just bday celebration-in fact it was EVERY aspect of my life.and it is not that i am dumb.i can tell the devil attacking me.(simply..others can and i cannot)

today as ernest just shared with me he was crashing into aj with yo to spend time with junwei.i realised i have spend too much time emo-ing and too narrow-minded.and i simply miss people work.haven been out for outings.

gotta be will-led and not emotions-led cuz i cannot lead a normal simple life.

the greatest reward of my 19th bday is this quote from xiany in her bday card to me:
"I suppose your encounter with God has certainly given you much live,laughter and peace!We can all see the change in you! like being more optimistic now."

despite all the issues i am facing, this is what keeps me going on strong for the Lord.=D.