always.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

I can sense the great harvest coming to church and the individuals recently and this is so confirmed with Pastor How Vision weekend!It was truly awesome and powerful!

Yet, the Devil is throwing me off from what I truly deserved.
and boy,aint the Devil having a hard time?
because what doesn't kill me, it just makes me stronger.=)

and the reason i am blogging is because beryl hong link yi said sth so hilarious that i couldnt resist blogging abt it.

wahaha im free -.- says:
i oni knw the buses always come wen i pray
wahaha im free -.- says:
but why wen i pray for ppl to come church
wahaha im free -.- says:
they don come -.-
wahaha im free -.- says:
hahaha

dont u all think it is hilarious!!!??HAHA!
innocent faith.i wish i am still 14!haha!

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

all i can say of my life now is,

i am tired but happy!
i am happy but not satisfied!

haha!simple aint it? i love my awesome life!do u?
i am those who wish i've 48 hrs a day to do all my stuff.
i used to be those who has 24hrs a day(i mean during the holidays)
and i thought i had too much time and i simply have no idea how am i going to spend it
and i also get pissed off becuz i am always 2nd class in someone's schedule.
i try to pack my schedule to look as if i am important and busy person.
but now i know i do not have to cuz i've plenty stuff to do
awesome how i change too yea?
you can join me!!

i feel like i am walking into my destiny! =)
i enjoy what i am doing now.
i am always either in church or ty/emm/gongz.
and i love DEE ONE a lot! =D!
if not i am spending time with family which consist of only me,granny and mom!

and people may think it is not fair
why jerlyn has such a good life?
well let me tell you i do not have.
my home have bills to pay,
i've mom who is now, yes now undergg her downside of depression.
i;ve a granny who is old.
i do not think i will do well for A's
contrary to what many will think.
i think i cannot make it to uni
(be it results or $$)
people are angry with me.
i am struggling with things i do not understand.

but there is a peace in my heart
there's faith in my heart.
and in my heart, i know i am strong.
and no i am not a strong person as you think i am.
but rather i am weak and God is strong in me.
and i believe in Your strength, i will break thru God
and i believe i will soar like eagles.
in every aspect of my life.
and cuz of that i simple love not just a good life but a GREAT life!haha!=)

p/s i just realise my ex-eyecandy no gf actually at all they are platonic frenz!HAHA!

Complete - by Parachute

Verse:

Here I am O God
I bring this sacrifice
my open heart
I offer up my life

Pre-Chorus:

I look to You Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

Chorus:

So I lift my eyes to You Lord
In Your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my Calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
restores me again

so I, I will be complete in,
I will be complete in You

The greatest thing in all my life is knowing You.
The greatest thing in all my life is knowing You.
I want to know You More, I want to know You more.
The greatest thing in all my life is knowing You.

The greatest thing in all my life is loving You.
The greatest thing in all my life is loving You.
I want to love You more, I want to love You more.
The greatest thing in all my life is loving You.

The greatest thing in all my life is serving You.
The greatest thing in all my life is serving You.
I want to serve You more, I want to serve You more.
The greatest thing in all my life is serving You.

This tiny piece of paper goes out to all my friends
As this Holiday called Christmas
Brings this year to an end.

It's now a time of hustle
Shopping bags and gifts
Putting up your tree, the lights,
And fighting traffic to and fro.

It's Christmas carols and Christmas cards,
It's wrapping gifts and food,
It's saying "Hi" to Santa
That puts us in a festive mood.

But amongst the cheery crowds,
Decorations and the snow,
Lies a very special birthday
Few remember, and some don't even know.

The reason for the season
Is the birth of Someone's Son,
In buying all your presents
Did you remember to buy Him one?

He wouldn't want a razor
Or a fifty dollar tie,
A brand new tool from Ikea, no
He's not your ordinary guy.

It's Someone's birthday
But no need to fill that cart
For the gift that you should give Him
Is right inside your heart.

So here is hoping that your Christmas
Is as beautiful and bright
As the stars that shone on Jesus
On that cold December night.

i know He is real.and i love Him a lot too.=)
thank You,Jesus!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

some say i am idealistic, but i would choose to say i am faith-filled.

anyway,pastor said faith-filled people are the most attractive people.

so, it doesnt hurt to be faith-filled huh?

HAHA!

remember also faith-filled person do not chase success, they attract success!

HAHA!

Monday, December 17, 2007

"You may be cool,I can walk on water.

You may be hot,I'm set on fire.

You may be nice,I live for others.

You may have riches,I have no more room to keep mine.

You may be happy,His joy is my strength.

You may be popular,My name is in the big book in Heaven.

You may be strong,I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.

You may be satisfied,I press on for His upward calling.

You may have the skills,I have the heart to learn them.

You may live for something worthwhile,I live for an eternal cause.

You may call the shots,I'm getting souls saved.

You may fulfil your dreams,I'm carrying out His will.

You may feel loved,Jesus died for me.

You may know where you're going,I'm destined to enter His Kingdom.

You may not know what I'm talking about,Because you don't know Christ... "

excited to go shopping with grandma later!! HEES =D!

I am really zonked out. Waking up at 7+am to work is not exactly my cup of tea.

I found a job and I realise I am no longer chasing what the world is chasing and neither do I have to be influenced by them.
I am secure in myself.Maybe not just yet.But, I think I will perfect my security soon. =)

and I am pretty excited because the Second Coming of the Lord is coming faster than what you think.
but still, we are all foolish men.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Break me,make me, mould me and never ever forsake me.
This is my heart's cry tonight.

Pastor Lia said something inspiring to the VBS worship team:
"You will never feel rested. This is how it is going to feel like 9 out of 10 times you go out there."
and nope i am not in the vbs worship team but i got this from dexter's blog and i though it quite inspiring to share.=)

We are bornt as original, don't die as a photocopy!

ain't it scary that you do not have a purpose in life cuz even a chair has a purpose?

What doesnt kill you makes you stronger(and even more vulnerable)

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Truly the process is long , painful, tedious but the Fruit is certainly rewarding.

i am looking at some of my friends now; and i thought to myself i almost ended up like them;
always depressed,unhappy,purposeless.

don't you find life such an irony?
LIFE should really start after A's level but it actually is not.
you thought that after clearing a huddle,
you''ll be happier,you feel time will be on your side
then u start to find job(desperately sometimes)
then you try to fit in and like the job
then you get $$ to buy those material stuff
and you feel happy.
yet all along you feel empty inside
you want a purpose yet you have not find it.
as the saying goes,
"IF you put your happiness in temporary things, your happiness is temporary;
IF you put your happiness in eternal thing, your happiness is eternal."

and it seems it is not that bad
at least you just lead a purposeless life thats all
what can be worse if your life is mess-ed up
like really messed up
clubbing,boyfriends etc etc
i guess what really messed teenagers up are emotions
not really about clubbing and boyfriends

and i realise bearing Fruit need not to be the number of people of cg has grown
it can be your character
knowing no matter what
you are firmly planted somewhere
and you know there is goodness and you know it has a long term impact

but the process is truly long, but as i look at my life now, i wouldn't have exchanged it with anyone else.=)
i give up what things that may seem exciting now, but i know the Fruit is more rewarding.=)

Monday, December 10, 2007

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hahaha.decided to reply to taggies to those will come back to visit my blog! =)

to xiany!:AHHHHHhhhhHHhH!!i reallly really want to go out with you. =)
to sharon: wow! tks for visiting my blog.
to jon.p:hahah..surprise you drop by and sorry for the commotion that i created in your tagboard.
HAHA...yup we all have grown up for the last 2 years.=)
to emme!!: haha...i din do this blog but i guess u compliment on choosing the right 1 ba.HAHA...
i really never see the you for so long liao la idiot. MISSES YOU a lot.='''''(

haha...actually as i am replying...i wonder if people do see it?

had a job.not much $$.but i love the focus of the company.and since it pleases my mom.so why not?haha..
i guess as you grow older, you tend to give up things less readily
sometimes 100% to God is no longer 100%.
i am still learning but i finally get a breakthru'.
and i realise i reallly really in love with my God. =)

Thursday, December 06, 2007

This is the 2nd day of school. Haha.. But the Devil has tried attacking me left right centre and I am just thinking can I last the entire year? I am not confident myself but I have faith in God. =)! This is all it matters =)!

i wrote this on 4th Jan.

and on another post Terence asked where did the laughing jerlyn gone?(when i was super depressed)

and on another post i thank cherie,sam teo,jiayi,tracy and lynette for making church so breathable.

HAHA.
WOW.
all i can say. i survive a year already.=)

Monday, December 03, 2007

Others Can, i cannot.

While others can be insecure, i cannot.
While others can have BGR, i cannot.
While others can go clubbing, i cannot.
While others can scold vulgarities, i cannot.
While others can backslide, i cannot.
While others can be selfish, i cannot.
While others can have a lousy family, i cannot and WILL NOT.
because...
I am going to belong to the generation of people who are willing to give God the best years of their life and He will use it to impact all levels of society and all walks of life.

Yea, i so believe i can impact my society.=)

Yesterday, sermon struck an impact on me.
Pastor was preaching about how God dealt within us
and from there we will reproduce
like how a spider does it. =)
This is so the reason i believe i can impact my society.

God dealt with my insecurities.
He dealt with my longing for love.
He dealt with my depression.

and i believe how He dealt with me can deal with YOU too.
yepp...YOU....the one who is reading my blog.=D
why not give Him a try
and give me a call?

i believe h.o.G.c can reproduce and that we'll shine as a brand new generation
a generation who loves God
a generation with no more insecurities
a generation with no more depression

i am making an impact today,
are you?

Sunday, December 02, 2007

AHhhhhHhhhhHHH!!!

okies.i am super upset.
because my grandma keep mentioning she is old
(and dying)
i mean seriously i really have bad feelings.
not that she has any serious ailment
it seems that she will just not wake up the next day
and she knows when it is
and my sixth sense are pretty freaky sometimes.

i know old and death is part and parcel of life
but until then, i really pray that she receive salvation.
and you really care, please remember her in prayers too.
thank you!