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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

alrighties.
u know i so want to be the typical teenage
"i screw up chem and econs"
but i know i am not a typical teenage at all in the first place.

alright.
anyway,i really screw up econs case studies.
haha.
but God just put in my heart that
it is Him i seek not the results.

me:God, i feel that You abandon me during econs case studies
God: it is me that you seek not your results
me:but God i really really really want to achieve 5A for You and glorify You
God:i know and i know you fight to your best but i am not a typical daddy expecting straight As
i am interested only in your character.

WOW.=).
for these really crappy thing called A's.
i have drawn my strength from God.
i haven broken barriers i never dared to dream
seriously, when people tell you A's is the most onerous journey
it definitely IS.haha
and i realise i have grown.
yep.character building.

but also cuz of this thing called A's
i sacrifice some stuff too.
i chose not to be involved with new town revival
i chose to give up things of God
and i know in the end
there is no one to blame
becuz this is my choice
(and i kind of regret it)

but i am still going to love God 100%

and oh i am disturbed by what i am feeling now.
the feeling of apathy of another disturbing incident.