always.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

It has been exactly a year ago..
that i ate lunch with cherie almost every sun
and NOW there are more people joining us for lunch. =)

it has been exactly a year ago...
when i asked cherie what if my mom banned me from church
for 3months due to A's
as i was then being banned from church 3 weeks b4 promos
but NOW my mom doesnt disapprove of me going church before exams.

It has been exactly a year ago..
when lynette asked me for follow-up
and NOW i am sitting into huishan's follow-up
and i havent finish mine with lynette. (HAHA)

It has been exactly a year ago..
when i was crying every night
living a life that is DYING
but NOW i am LIVING every sec
loving and treasuring it.

It has been exactly a year ago
when i know God
and NOW my life has totally changed.

and guess what?
i cannot wait exactly 1 year from now
for God's bigger plans for me =)

Friday, September 21, 2007

we often complain that God did not bless us,
on the contrary, God wants to
and He even has a bigger plan.
He does not just want to bless you.
He wants to you to attain that blessing yourself.=)

havent you had a greater satisfaction
knowing you accomplish something
with your hard work than
being given by your parents?
It felt exactly the same too.=)

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

i am quite ashamed.
i do not know why.
i do not know why i gave up my studies so easily.
this is so not me.
perhaps regrets come a sec too late.
HAHA.
oh wells.

if i do well,
i call it a true miracle.
haha.

i don noe why people like the feeling of eyecandy/crush.
haha.
it is like a Devil
ensnares you so easily.
tempted you with sweetness
brighten up your blue days.
then u get to the saturation point
where you get so smitten.
it so lovely.
but there's one huge prob.
you don get the person
and then it is like gg down a slippery slope
you think you are ugly
you think you are worthless
all just because you cannot get your eyecandy/crush.
and a lot people tell me you like that feeling.

i dont.
but there one feeling i enjoy most.
the hunger for God.
it keeps you excited.
it keeps you going when you are tired.
it always make you feel good-i.e no depression.
and you know,
you always get what you want in God in the end. =)

Sunday, September 16, 2007

As Irene Ang aptly puts it,
"If you don't know who you are, you become who people think you are, and you wont be happy."

WOW.
thank God i know i am.=)

an unprecedented hunger.

now i know where i stand in your heart.

and i am living on borrowed time.
and i do not waste any min or sec of it.

I am completely sold out for Jesus
and no one can stop me now.=)

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Something exciting this afternoon.
cant wait to see another life change.
this whole weekend has been a trial.
but thank God how much i learnt.=)

Thursday, September 13, 2007

"in life, you take some, you lose some. i've always told the people around me that it's better to lose because it shows your love for another, it shows how much you're willing to invest in another person, another relationship. the catch here is that, there are times you just put in your 100% into this person, maybe sometimes even 200%, but that person still doesn't appreciate what you do for him/her and still continues in his/her ways, that's when you learn to toughen your heart and continue loving no matter what.

it's easy to take because taking costs you nothing, but it's better to give, because when you give, you learn to love. loving makes love. your love for others shouldn't have any strings attached, because when it comes free and easy to the people out there, their lives starts to get transformed by your love. it should even come to a point you are able to say "i love you for free, because i was loved by the One for free"."

jamie wrote that and i thought it;s really sweet. =)
it makes me rem what lynette said before
"let us be will-driven instead of emotions-driven"
i hope i wont get sued for copyright issue!HAHA.
i got to be toughen up! =)

There's an old saying that goes,
" You will know your true friends
when situations arise."
how true.=(

and God just put into my head
" Why must people seek me when they are only upset?"
how even more true. =(

well for the 1st para
i will like to honour some really wonderful people here.=)
marian for her blueberry cheesecake
that cheers me up after a devastating maths papers
evadne-i tell you this darling is super wonderful
she can travel all the way down to kovan just to teach me chem
when exams are like a few days away.=)
kyna-for making me smile by talking rubbish non-stop when i was angry with someone
my grandma-for feeding me with dun know what HAHA( i am serious i have no idea what i drank every morning and MASSAGE!HAHA
mommy-for allowing me to binge.HAHA

well.my life is fantastic after all =)
i love my God. =)

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

=) =).okies.
i don know why after talking to zhenghui
i am so happy!!
i love hoGc people!! =)
she makes me realise the true meaning of having a real vision

i was blog-hopping again
and i thank God again and again
to rescue all the teens' junk.
haha.
i din mean junk food.
HAHA.

i enjoy my life!!
and love every sec of reaching out to someone! =)

Monday, September 10, 2007

thank God for mosquitoes!
HAHA.
i got a couple of mosquitoes bites this morning
and i woke to finish studying my chem and so my daily bible reading
or rather supposedly daily.

God is truly amazing! =)

Sunday, September 09, 2007

=).let me be a self-proclaim narcissist.
i love reading my blog.HAHA.

when i stepped into church for service today,
i know all along why God put me into this church
and what sets me apart from most youths
even christian youths
we are not just high for nth.

i still remember the first time
i stepped into church
there is something different in the atmosphere
from most churches.
just something amazingly different
that i cannot explain.
later i found out it the atmosphere of sacrifice
of the previous generation
that why this generation enjoys
the presence of God so much.
which most of us did not treasure
and took it for granted.

i always wonder why this church wants more of us
than other churches that sometimes i fail to comprehend
but today i know.
it is the hunger.
it is this very hunger that leads to character-building and commitment.

and that sets hoGc people apart.

i look at beryl.
and i know i want the hunger back.
i want it twice as what i used to have.
and beryl just simply makes my day.=)

Friday, September 07, 2007

guess what!?i am super excited to blog today!!
why?
because i just came back from zone prayer meeting!!!=)
it definitely worth it and no extra hours of mugging can trade for God's presence! =)

many fruits of thought:
God did not calculate costs with you,
(when He gave His son to be crucified for you)
so why are you calculating costs with God?
Everything that God "costs" you
is because He wants the best future for you
because He has promised
you shall be the head and not the tail.

as you shall travel thru' the valley of fear
God has went before you
and he shall be ur strength.
do not be afraid to rise up

you know when cherie prayed for me.
i really felt the devil left me. =)
amazing huh?=)

i think it is even more amazing
to hear dominic says
"dont you all feel you don have to sleep tonight
after worshipping God for 2+hrs"
all i can say is a big wow cuz he has been standing thru' out the 3 hrs of Word and worship

i enjoy bus rides home with tracy! =)

Thursday, September 06, 2007

haha.just sth funny i want to share.
yvonne was so stress that
she actually forgot to tap her ez-link card on the bus.
haha.this is when stress gets in all of us.
we do crazy thing.
at least we are still young. =)

hees. just blog-hop into this cedarian or rather ex-cedarian blog
she wrote sth really saddening
it goes sth like this
"i would rather do drugs yada yada(clubbing/drink alcohol etc)
to waste my life away"
and she apparently pledged to be anoxoric
=(.
doesnt she know how much God loves her
and that she doesnt need to do such things?
she knows Christ but not intimately
i will keep praying for her.=)

sometimes we are so caught up with our work
be it studies, CCA
or rather too caught up with our emotions.
that we forget we are young.
that there are some things
that can only be enjoyed
now or never.
we are just to caught up to be slaves of the world.
slaves to be perfect.
slaves to be the president of so and so
slaves to be good-looking
slaves to achieve straight As
slaves to be in a bgr
slaves,slaves, slaves.
no wonder it is pastors' hearts for their church
"to raise up a whole new generation who will gives their best to God."

there are times that i grumble
that why do i have to put in more hard work than others
who achieve maximum grades with minimum effort
but God reminds me daily
how He has rescued me
"from wasting my life away"
and that i am part of this whole new generation
who is holy and pure
and indeed loving every bit of my life! =)
Thank You, heavenly father!

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

haha..God just put something really inspiring in my head that i feel a need to share!!!

if you think all that you have done is enough

and can be consider as hard work

A A A A A

think again.it is not how good you are but how bad you want it.
(and i want it badly)

i finally got a taste of what it truly means.

i will worship.Jesus, my King of all glory.
let my actions be acts of worship not just words.

Monday, September 03, 2007

AHHH! i broke the rules again. haha.
not suppose to be here u noe.haha

God..You have..
redeemed my past
my present has a purpose
and my future is secure.

Thank You.

100% God 0% me.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

WOW.
wee keong and big dean say i am friendly and outgoing.
i am really surprise.
cuz that wont be the words to describe me in the past.

thank You, God! =)

when i think that i am not satisfied
when i think i am ugly from inside out
when i think my life is screwed
You always say i am beautiful.
both in and out
and i always think God's words matters more. =)

i love the latest and most controversial book on Mother Theresa
the one that she actually doubts God.
and you know what those people
who don understand
sneer at Christians who cannot even defend your own faith
but i do not think that is what God is saying.
in fact, Mother Theresa's works justified her faith
she just keep doing even though she is spiritually low.

"Show me your faith and i will show you my works thru' faith"

i want to be like Mother Theresa. =)

Have you ever dream of singing in front of the stage?

Have you ever dream of being a leader?

Have you ever dream of scoring 4As for A’s?

Have you ever dream…?

Have you ever dreams that your dreams coming true?

Have you?

We are the scrums of the earth

No one gave us a chance to our dreams.

But, pastors did.

HoGc.

A place where dreams come true. =)!