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Saturday, August 04, 2007

Festival of Praise 2007

For the past few weeks, it has been a struggle with many cliches and quotes of faith. It is no longer that I do not believe in God, not knowing that He is always good and faithful cuz I know He is and will always be. Something just stirred; all the temptations that the Devil tested me, I failed them miserably. I never feel so dirty or messed up and worse still not knowing why i feel like that. All the visions and dreams seem to died just like Lazarus in the bible after so much pleads for the Lord. Perhaps, it is amazing how long Jesus takes to work something suddenly in your life! :) But, until Jesus said it is finished, it will not be so.

and there were 2 sisters in the story too where i would say i am more like Martha than Mary; who sees the worldly side of things(not worldly things) than the spiritual-the impossible, who is a perfectionist, who is hardworking and becomes disgruntled with the Lord. Perhaps, sometimes we seek the healings and blessings more than the Healer and Blesser...Martha knows the Promise of God that Jesus will resurrect Lazarus in the Last Day, but she did not know He was going to do it then and there. Sometimes, we need to have an open heart for God to work the most impossible things in our lives right here and right now even when you are reading this. :)

Whatever you are facing right now(all the problems), they are always for the glory of Son of the God. John11:4 He said, " This sickness in not unto death but for the glory of God that the Son of God may be glorified through it." Sometimes, we feel so dirty and messed-up by our problems that we forgot the Book of Life saying we are forgiven already. Because forgiveness comes not just because we felt forgived but by the grace of the Lord.

Actually, i was supposed to usher yesterday but God has His other plans. I met new people who taught me Isiah40 which told me the Lord strength will renew my soul. It's pretty amazing how i know new friends cuz I do not know the directions to Singapore Indoor Stadium but God always plant people to guide me to your final destination. I think the brother and sister are really sweet people. :). Huiying previously told me to go for FOP with an open heart and indeed that open heart allow me to absorb what I learnt yesterday. Otherwise, it would be just another concert, another sermon, another cliche.

As I was just worshipping, God renewed my vision and say "I'll be your guide and I will do it for you(make a way for you)." And i say God this is all i need, a few words from You. He can do what you cant when you did all that you can. =). It just reaffirms my saying " hey people out there, stop saying I can't because I know I can with Jesus in me." :)

what can I say?
FOP 2007 is truly AWESOME!