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Thursday, June 14, 2007

blogger is so weird.haha.
AHHH!! i lost something precious!
INDIVIDUALITY! haha
i cut my hair today and it is so weird.
i look like my junior.
and i dun feel comfortable knowing i look like her. haha. =)
goodness, ppl dun be shock when you see in sch or wherever!!haha

anw, was reading dawei's blog and here is an excerpt of it
hope he doesnt mind!hees.

"but at the end of the day, our church is truely a place where dreams come true.
we all have dreams when we were young.
be it being a princess, the prince charming, a happy family or having true friends.
but through the process of life, our dreams were broken or sometimes shattered.
life may not turn out the way we dream or wish it to be.
so what if you may be successful in life, doing well in studies and cca, having a happy family, so what if you are what people yearn to be. so what if you are so good at this and that.
we continue with our lives with broken or shattered dreams.
there are still things which are missing in our lives.
sometimes our dreams just seems so far away, sometimes humanly impossible.
however, the church is place where dreams come true.
it is always so amazing to learn that so and so had grown and learn in church, more importantly, they have their lives transformed.
it is a fact that not all Christians are Christians as per se.
it is because many of times people have a certain expectations of Christians, people who normally fall short of that standard portrait a negative image of Christianty.
Christians are not perfect, but if the person is a genuine Christian you can see the change in them.
there will be a time where you really understand when you see, touch and feel the real Christianty.
dreams start to come true for the genuine Christians.
it may not be in sight yet but by faith it is coming true."

haha.how true! and after that i was reading my previous entries of my blog!
Praise Him who lift me out of the whole depression thing. =)

Then she would fall into days of depression; then finally built up the strength to br positive and to snap out of it for another few days. But the tiniest and simplest things would trigger off her tears again. That was her routine. It was a tiring process and most of the time she couldn’t be bothered battling with her mind. It was far stronger than her body.

Friends and families came and went; sometimes helping her with the tears, other times making her laugh. But even in her laughter there was something missing. She never seemed to be truly happy; she just seemed to be passing time till she waited for something else. She was tired of just existing; she wanted to live. But what was the point in living when there was no life in it. These questions went through her mind over and over again till she reached the point of not wanting to wake up from her dreams that felt so real.
Adapted from P.S. I Love You by Cecelia Ahern

If there were any words to describe my periods of depression, there will then be it. I thought there were no words to describe my feelings then until I saw this verse from the book and I realize it struck a chord in me. Thank God I have already found my purpose in life so that I do not feel that empty as I used to be.

haha yup i was that she a few months back! can't believe it?
well, my God is an unpredictable God too! =)
maybe that is why my life is so exciting now!! hees. =)