always.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

haha..sometimes i do wonder whats the pt of keeping this blog but it enables me to rant off.so yea ppl, dun get too worried if i am ranting cuz it is maybe the only way to vent my frustrations.seriously, i feel so much happier now.

what to do if ppl dun wait for u, dun wait for ppl lor.easy concept.

fasting today.not an easy 1 cuz food is considered as 1 of my stronghold.

i realise how faithful is God and i ought to remain faithful for bigger things.cuz i almost lost all hopes in getting ppl to Christ but then my two darlings turn bk and one even said even if i cant go church,it wont stop me from doing great things for the Lord.
gurvin darling! i am so proud of you! loves loves~

so yea, it may be a long affair some may say it is unfair but God has His way of dealing things. In the end, we are doing for Him not us.So why say unfair when there's no revivial in ur own sch.

i shall remain faithful that 1 day my grandma will be in the kingdom of God with me. i guess this is the biggest challenge.but i am not afraid to be faithful cuz God has proven Himself again and again.=)

Thursday, February 22, 2007

i make that decision to quit n i do regret it now but i do not regret it in the past neither the future.So why now? Is it because Satan knows I am easier to be tempted now?

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

i hate you. i hate you. i hate you so much for manipulating my life, loses my cool, loses my patience, causes me to sin.i hate you so much for affecting my mind.i hate you devil, i hate you so much.

RAHS!!!

Monday, February 19, 2007

1 Corinthians 13:1-3

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.

And though I have gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

And though I bestow all the goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.

1 Corinthians 13:13

And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Lord, teach me to love, yea?

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Mark8:33
Get behind me, Satan, for you are not mindful of the things of God, but things of man.
haha.nice bible quote when u feel like you are being tempted from every single sins lust, greed,pride etc. and when u r esp frustrated.

i am just so in love with God.

that metallic necklace i lost, God found it for me.=)

cousin gave me lots of new clothes.quite nice.finally got a black pants for ushering.haha.gong will be please i'll be returning ur black pants soon.haha.

cny is just another superficial day for every1 to catch up, to have a break*(though i think those who prepare a great deal for cny may disagree)haha.in fact i do not think cousins and relatives are catching, we are merely slacking away at 1 corner saying cny this yr no mood etc.haha.thot it is the same every year.maybe age indeed is catching up and ppl like me are getting cynical abt it.
of course, there is the balance view that cny is the only time i do see my long lost cousins and relatives who are super busy.
but really if we really want to catch up, it will be a heartfelt sincerity to do so by arranging a date with the person than waiting that once a year thing to come and 'catch up'.
but nevertheless, before i get criticised,i must conclude that cny doedds benefit us but we cannot deny the traditions are getting diluted.
sounded like some gp essay.haha.oh wells.

trust and faith.that's what i rly need this yr! =)

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

definition of valentine day:

a sad day for emo ppl

a love day

a commericalised day

haha.well.tt sums up today for me.=)

i have to copy this quote and let the world knows but i cannot seem to find it.
i cannot stand my tardiness, my way of not getting things,i feel so ashamed and i simply cannot take it anymore.

i lost my Cross necklace which holds special meaning to me.

i lost my chem tys a few days ago. tell me how lousy i am? =(.

but God asks, "do you worship me, the Living God or that metallic necklace of yours?"
my answer, "You, Lord!Forgive me for putting the metallic thing in front of you"
think i will buy myself another cross which i 'feel' it is the right moments.

today two interviews went well compared to normal interviews.God truly answers prayers.even i do not get through i am satisified with the performance of my interviews and i did make more friends while waiting for interviews again.=).that is why i said the cross necklace means sth special to me.=)

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

I’m SO tired of school, tired of feeling insecure, tired of feeling insignificant, tired of feeling tired, tired of feeling jealous, tired of thinking why do I have to do your dirty job, tired of putting up with your pms, tired of running away each time I see you. I thought I guarded my heart well enough but I am afraid of losing my heart-that heart I promised for God. That passion that used to burn so strong before the Devil keep mocking at me.

I want holidays; so that I can spend most of my time doing something worth it in Your House.

But, I know it is impossible. God just came when I am feeling so tired. =). Lord, even I am tired, I will still do it for you. =)

The unexplainable love I felt guarding me, giving me a sound mind, protecting from verbal abuse of my mom that was so real right beside me when I was crying. Now, I am crying because of this great love that God has given me. Even I do not lead the holiest lifestyle, You are always there. I cannot explain why some people can feel it and some cannot. But, all I know I am so hungry for Your presence, Lord.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

i am stuck.so childishly stuck.

i guess God loves everyone.=).

Thursday, February 01, 2007

there are the physical and emotional needs.

i am not talking about sex.

i am talking about friendship.

when you r being attacked by your strongholds, the only refuge is God.