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Sunday, October 08, 2006

One of my church friends, Valerie appeared in the newspaper!=)! =)! She is a super nice person. She is one of the 25 under 25 youths who accomplishes the impossible!=)! I am super happy for her. The thing that touches me so much was that she is so humble!! The first thing she did upon receiving the news was to pray and that all glory belongs to Him. You know people usually in her situation will glow in pride and say," Praise the Lord!". But, she is just different, even to the way she says it. So humble. I admire her a lot.oops...later people think I am stalking her.haha.=)!

I read your msg. I wish I could turn back and that I have the determination like those youths under 25 who make it to the newspaper. It is not that I want to be in the newspaper but I admire their perseverance in pursuing their passion. In fact, perhaps my greatest wish to accomplish hockey. But, I know I can't. I really can't. maybe that is why I am scared, lost, sad. You name it I have it. Even a tinge of happiness and relief.but, I have make the resolution not to turn back though it hurts a lot.

I do not want to be self-conscious. I don want to put up what I do not truly feel inside. I am weak. I need help. I need guidance in prayer. I want to say I am not ashamed to admit but somehow there is this fear. But, I do not ever want to leave You.