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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Just got to blog this!=)!
Quoted from ms tay you give up now doesn't mean you give up your whole entire life
And you are not to be blamed of your situation. And that how I live my life is not going to be decided by anyone else beside me( and Him of cos)
She told me a lot of meaningful stuff today.how I wish I can record them down!i wish to go through the experience again.
She asked me how is she going to build up my confidence if she just let me go like that. Sigh. I wish to know too.

There are many steps I need to do first before recovering it.
Step1: I am not here to please you. oh my I am super tired, trying to be nice, trying to be that girl, trying to be well-liked. Sometimes, I think I tried too hard to control things that are beyond my control. Well it is self-explanatory aint it? It is beyond my control. What right do I have to mess God's plan for me? And what right do you have to condemn me?
Seriously, I cannot shut your mouth but I can shut my ears!=)!

Step 2: stop comparing and competing. So what that person has a great testimonial compare to me? What is testimonial to me in the first place? I see you being popular, being highly sought after by people. Having a lot of 'friends' around you, you hold high position. You are like wow compared to me. BUT, I always see you never happy. Yup. Always. And I thought to myself, happiness is the real priceless thing

Step3: it is ok that you do not have friends anywhere and that all your close friends aint gg to be there forever. BUT, I know I will still have them. =)!

Step4:I just want a simple life. No more trying to show off what I cannot even afford, guess what, there is no right for me to show off too cuz all gifts come from Him and all glory goes to Him too.=)!

Step5: just let people take advantage of you. as I said before innocence is the best gift you can even have. You will not have to got so emotional over that.

The more I say I do not want to end up like you, the more I will end up like you.
Seeing me in you already and you in me already.