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Thursday, August 17, 2006

I just felt the need to blog after I read anqi's blog. COurse of emotions are running into my head. Let's start with today and maybe a few nights ago? haha...

Yup. An amazing day indeed but it can be both positive and negative. I think it is fate? God's plan?I did not know that how fate can just arrange me to know a girl who is so much like me- in the same exact situation but yet we never really cross each other path till today. of course, if not for a lot of incidents that occur in between. I doubt this will occur. It happens a few nights ago. I was dreaming about her.(ok.i'm not some pervert dreaming of girls.lol. I do not even know why I actually dreamt of her.) But, now i think i know?
Today, first thing in the morning went to chat with her. The irony? I chat with her just because we happened to meet when we were going to our classes. It was not an arranged meeting. This conversation led to the next. I do not know why, I do not know how? I'm not even close to her. I do not understand. YET, whatever she said is exactly how i felt. Her advice are good. Not those sweeping statements kind. It is like instantly, I've found a friend in her. It is like 1 day friendship but yet the impact is large. I found someone who really understands me. I do not know how to describe. It is so powerful?(i know it sounds wrong?haha..i shall expand my vocab first.) The irony of everything is that if she had remained in hockey, i would not be that close to her or even an opportunity to interact with her.Just as i've found a friend, i know that our friendship may not last as i feel (this is only a personal stand) that relationship is circumstantial.
Don cha think so? I was thinking to join some other CCA with her. But i know this will be the last thing she ever wants me to do.I look at the team now and wonder will i ever find a friend like her that would make me stay in hockey.i hope so.yet, it saddens me that i am unable to build on this friendship.

analysing too much?