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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Here are some things that had occurred over the past few days...

CT results.wow.haha.darn.guess what?so far for all the tests i am always 0.5mark to the next grade.wow.wow.wow.so much of not caring about grades.that is the bad news. the good news is that 1 will be rounded up and another paper i argued with my maths teacher to get that 0.5mark.haha. in the end, i am thankful for today.i was at first really upset but i am delight at how things turn out.'')!

hockey...i think i am the worst even the teacher notices me.i'm having a hard time bucking up.my back aches like hell.it is not the simple strain.it is like i cannot describe pain.it is numb and pain and i don know. yet, i really enjoy hockey today. i can see the girls are bonding!'')!A lot people are speaking up and interacting instead of their own partners. i am making more friends or darlings.

i like the bf theory agnes shared with me.
good ones are taken.(sometimes i wonder y cant we be the ones taking the gd ones)
bad ones are full of shit.
gay ones are out of order.
how true.
haha.

i just want to be somewhere secure.i do not know.ppl think i'm actually in the most secure position.i am not.i tried a diff approach since sch reopens hanging with this girl that share the same sentiments.i guess i end up hurting her.i make her hang out with another 2 ppl she doesnt want to hang out with(there's a diff she doesnt want to hang out w n she doesnt like).i dunnoe...i wish fate makes the decision for me.i feel like gg bk to cedar.to 2o.to4z.just to be with tty and xiany.just to be with anna huiyi amanda(i'm not very very close to them but they gave me a lot of security of a friendship).at least i feel secure.

i wish my mom can stop yelling at me.

she think she can be the one depressed and i cannot.

y when i tell the adults i need professional help but they chose to ignore me?

i feel like crying.

i feel so hopeless and useless.

when can i truly be happy?

where was the cheerful me?

why am i losing faith?

tears dropping now...