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Sunday, January 09, 2005

boo!

1st wk of sch came n pass.cant even rem wad happen exactly last yr @ this time.arrgh.i guess i don hv much self-discipline.i ended coming online.cant stand my com man!!!!arrgh!!y is it so slow.i pray that this can be uploaded.yup.i think i know wad i want n wad i'm gonna do this.bside o's man.i'm determined to go where i wan to be.n also abt the superficial frenZship.i want to end it.i'm dreading sch everyday.cuZ of *ahem*.i'm not ashamed to do that either.i mean blog is liberal wad.then where u want me to write!?the reason i always partner her is that cuZ i'm afraid i'm alone.i guess that sec 3 i was too emotional.but now i want to BREAKAWAY!!!!!i dun care i'm alone or wadsoever...i think wad most impt in frenZship is that u really noe that person is a frenZ n no matter wad u'll feel like a grp instead of alone.there r others whom i can partner with during joggin etc wad.theres no need to be frenZ with her cuZ i'm alone or wadsoever. N I JUST WANT TO TELL EVERY1 THAT SHE N I R NO BEST FRENZ,OH PLS THANK YOU.i specifically mean some1 in my class.i guess that kind of obvious who she is.i noe my close frenZ who saw this wont mind cuZ i guess they'll heard me complainin abt her.but still i'm dreading sch everyday cuZ of her.arrgh.cant she stop following me.i want my own life.this is my last yr in cedar already.i want to do my best in my studies(cuZ of o's) n also dun want to regret abt frenZship stuff.so yup.I HATE HER A LOT N ALOT.but i'm not gonna let her affect me!boo!n i don want to be a crybaby anymore.i don see the use of crying.u hv to be strong man.nobody will go aww...wadever or shit so yup.anyway that person is downright irritating n i daresay every1 dislike her in 1 way n amother.i also think she's affecting my social life.so yup!anyway its gongZ b'day tmr!!!!!!!!yay!!!!i'm so happy for her n oh i hope i can pon tuition n also hope that somethings can work out.plZ GOD.i'm praying...